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DogMan's Journal

DogMan's Journal

I seems that weekend coffee threads are a thing of the past. Which were my main space to share about myself

I thought I'd start my own thread. My username is a reference to the AFL team. I don't have a pet dog. I love dogs, but live in a small unit with 2 cockatiels (Collectively known as "The Chook Mans")

I've been in the mental health care system since 2003. At that time, I really hadn't seen any doctor for 12 years. The family who adopted me in my adolescence never once took me to a doctor

2003, during my honours year in a Fine Arts degree, I presented at uni health services in a mess. I said that I was embarrassed to be there, I requested a female doctor. So I think they assumed I had issues with my junk. And she quite taken aback when I mentioned psychotic symptoms

I was referred to CATT. Lots of it was done by phone. I had an in person appointment with the CMHT. The psychiatrist there said she suspected Schizophrenia. We negotiated no hospital as long as I gained weight prior to next appointment (I had some funny ideas about food and farming)

The antipsychotics made me very hungry. So that was rather easy

I did manage to graduate. My 4th year marks weren't great. Then I sort of accidentally met someone who knew someone looking for casual staff in childcare. So I applied and worked in childcare. Progressing up through ful time permanent staff

I moved a lot in Canberra, but did okay for years

2009 I had a big relapse. I took 6 weeks off work. I did have that much leave accrued. Since I rarely took leave. But when I returned, the dynamic changed and I was on the outer. My job became untenable

I moved to regional victoria and enrolled in a Master of IT (A conversion masters. So similar to undergrad but shorter. Which is possible if you have a degree in another discipline)

Mid way through, my housemate left chips cooking on the stove and accidentally burned my house down

So I took an early exit point of a Postgraduate Certificate. I contacted my mum, who I had had very little to do with since I was adopted in the early 90s (It's a long story)

I briefly stayed with mum by the beach

My sister got divorced around the same time. So I found somewhere to live with my sister in Melbourne. It didn't last long, the landlord developed the property into apartments

A period of couch surfing and homelessness followed

My (bio) mum's health had deteriorated and doctors recommended she didn't live alone. We moved into Social Housing together. We moved here in 2012, mum died in 2024, which was apparently her record for staying in one place. I'm still in the same unit and it's my record too

Lockdown broke me. I've seen various outpatient services. And professionals have played "Musical Chairs" with my diagnosis specifics. They all agree on Schizophrenia and Seasonal Affective Disorder. But other additions include OCD, PTSD, OSDD, ASD and others

I've been with my current psychologist since 2022. Which is a record for me. I've had longer dealings with psychiatrists, but not psychologists. I don't currently have a psychiatrist. But my GP formerly worked in psychiatry in the UK

My Psychologist is trying to get me into a psychiatrist. They keep deeming me "Outside their scope". I'm currently being referred to the local CFMHS Forensic Service. The "Harm OCD" is currently being viewed as actually potentially dangerous

I do a monthly zoom peer group for voice hearers. I think next Monday is our next meeting

My team want me to apply for the NDIS. They actually signed me up without my consent in 2018. I was grandfathered onto the scheme from it's predecessors. I opted out straight away

So that's a bit about me

@fluttershy1 @taali @cuddlebear @chasingsunsets @missgremlin @dimity @appleblossum @nala2022 @bow @captain24 @jynx @smilinggecko

I don't really know who to tag. I've generally aimed for active people who are generally nice to me

Picture of chook mans:

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Hi @Cuddlebear good to see you. Would love to catch up sometime.

@DogMan79 I had a gp who hated patients referring to written notes and preprepared questions but imho they're essential sometimes. I wouldn't get bogged down perfecting the detail - an outline with major speaking points might do as the dr will probably want to enlarge on or follow up some things more than others.

I have a psychiatrist appt tomorrow - not sure what to expect as there was an out of the blue suggestion it be face to face instead of the usual phonecall.

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@Dimity best of luck with your face to face appointment with the psychiatrist tomorrow

I've had limited access to psychiatrists since ~2015. Something which my psychologist is trying to remedy

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@DogMan79 Im so glad something is progressing with access to a psychiatrist. I saw you saying you had no access since 2015. They are so expensive and so many people can’t get access.

Have they set up an appointment yet?

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@DogMan79 How did the psychiatrist go? I can understand your experience the public mental health system has a lot of flaws and it really impacts on people who need it.

I’m sad to hear of the triage experience. I can see you are doing the very best you can to help yourself and get access to Supoorts. The person in triage was awful and should be treating you with dignity and respect.

It’s good you are drafting for CATT team. I don’t know about yku but I get so overwhelmed with CATT and similar acute services I forget the important rhings I want to say or want hekp with etc.

Im just going out of my thread because I want to give back to people like you who have stood by my side despite being unwell yourself. You even opened a whole thread to help lift me up.

I am still very unwell even after almost 2 months in psychiatric. But I’m here because you mean a lot to me. And I care about how you are and want to be able to support you too.

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@Dimity Hello my friend. I’d love to catch up. I’m wondering if you have a thread if your own? That way I can find you easier and we can chat, I can get to know you better and hopefully be of some support.

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@Cuddlebear You said to @DogMan79 " I am still very unwell even after almost 2 months in psychiatric. But I’m here because you mean a lot to me. And I care about how you are and want to be able to support you too.".

Sorry to hear you're still unwell. I guess we could agree we're among friends here because I feel the same way about you both.

I've tagged you into a thread I've been using lately - I occasionally sent you a cheerio from there while you were in hospital but you probably weren't online much.

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Psychologist tomorrow (Wednesday) Psychiatrist Thursday

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Good luck for tomoz @DogMan79 

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Thanks @Dimity @Cuddlebear

CATT Psychiatrist said:

  • They don't do ongoing care
  • He doesn't entirely understand why my Psychologist referred me
  • Based on my presentation, and what I said, he thinks current risk is pretty low
  • He thinks GP should have run the medication switch past a neurologist. And he will communicate that to GP [ edited by moderator]
  • He thinks lots of the remaining symptoms could be treated with a depot injection increase. And he'll communicate that to GP

They had 3 security guard waiting at the door. Dunno if that's standard practice, or if I was flagged as 'risk'

I hope my Psychologist's not angry. I think that she had hoped for more. But I was discharged

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Sounds a mixed bag @DogMan79 . Some positives (and good to have the expert advice) but disappointing you won't have the ongoing support you and your psychologist hoped for. Hope he was open to being consulted again in future should the need arise.

My psychiatrist probably just monitors my meds tbh. He doesn't counsel or offer therapy. I didn't see him in person the other day - it was short notice and I had another appt following on - but I will next time. I'd gone years just on telehealth.

How do you feel about increasing the depot?

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