Hard place

Thanks @Wintersweet

I haven't really told them that it heavily effects me once I am on my own again. I will bring this up at my next appointment, thank you.

I will also check out blueknot. Thank you for your advice.

@Whaledone1234

My pleasure! Thank you for sharing 💛

Thank You, Mindee, yes, am lucky wd the psychologist iv got, I could never have imagined even speaking about abuse with ALL the ones iv had to see previously. We only had one session on the abuse, I didn't do well n he has kinda sacked it for now, im meant to come up with things to make me not react so bad I guess. See his point, but I thought I was gunna get it all outta me for the first time ever, I kinda really want to ~ but fear it just as much when we get back to it

We are a funny lot really

@WannabeFree

Both wanting to get it all out and finding it really hard to talk about make sense, and is a really hard position to be in. Would you be able to talk to your psychologist about wanting to talk about it and the fear of talking about it? It sounds like at the moment you’re feeling like you have to be the one to work out how to manage talking about it but I’d hope your psychologist could help prepare/equip you to talk about it. I’m hoping that would help you feel more supported.

i really resonate with this, you definitely aren't alone 🫂 i truly wish i could offer any advice or insight at all, but im on the same journey ❤️‍🩹 sending strength and peace your way

I'm sorry, that has come out arse about, he hasn't left it up to me alone to figure out, he is on it to haha. I can see what he's saying, but I really have no idea what will work. I have no contact with family, andI have no inkling to. My social circle is small. As far as ideas to cope, u could go for a walk, make a nice meal blar blar blar, but I probably won't do whatever WE come up with because when I there with him it seems plausible or possible even,. But when said n done, I get home & the somewhat trance like state returns & nothing makes me feel anything but dam dread

@prettypigeon

May you have strength and peace on your journey too.

Have you heard of BlueKnot? Thought I should mention them in case you haven’t come across them.

@WannabeFree

I’m glad he’s on it. Hoping that if you explain the challenge you’re having with the trance-like state he’ll be able to work with you on what might help you with that too. I know my psych has encouraged me to practice the coping strategies when I’m doing more ok so I can build up the skills. I also found it helpful to find a guided recording of the type of exercise my psych wanted me to do so I wasn’t trying to remember in the moment. And as I mentioned to prettypigeon, BlueKnot might also be helpful.

Thank You, no i haven't heard of BlueKnot, I will look it up today. Recording sounds like a plan to. I so do really appreciate ur response.

@WannabeFree

Hoping it’s helpful for you 😊

This stuff is really hard, so I want you (and everyone else who’s dealing with similar things) to have all the support available.