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Thanks @Chasingsunsets

I get to see my psych tomorrow.

Am around too if you need to chat. Goes both ways 💗

@Snowie! So good to be on at similar times. I am so glad you get to see you psych tomorrow. Not long now hey. How’s your Sunday been?

Thanks for being around for a chat too, appreciate it a lot. 🫶

Hi @Chasingsunsets

Been a busy day. Drove home, we've been at the snow all weekend.

How have you been?

Oh wow @Snowie, the snow sounds fun!! I was talking to bow about the snow and that I have never seen snow before haha ⛄️. What do you like doing at the snow 🤩

Yeah I am alright actually trying to sort out tech drama 🤪 one of the forms here isn’t working as I lose my keypad for that one bit and so I can’t submit it 😜. So just filled out yet another tech form 🙈, getting ptsd over the tech forms lol ☺️. Meds have been increased for me so we will see, don’t like when things get increased. I’d rather be on nothing 😌. So we will see 😬. Went for a walk earlier which was lovely ☀️. What else is on for your week?

Hey @Bow wanted to check in 🙏, off to bed now but don’t want to rush my reply to ya I haven’t forgotten. A little tired as trying to fill out a forum which isn’t working so just had to do another tech form here like I was saying to snowie above and tried again just before. Ah well such as life right. I do like to get things sorted so it’s hard leaving it to I don’t know when to be sorted by people I don’t know and then no idea who controls it but that’s how it goes right. Anyway enough of my rant 😊. Hope your going ok 🌻

We have been going to the snow since the kids were little @Chasingsunsets We mainly ski/snow board up there. We have friends we meet up there too.

I hope you're able to work out the tech issues hon.

I would rather be on no meds too, but do worry what would happen if I stop them. Not really game to find out.

I have a busy week ahead with appt.s for me and for my mum.

That sounds like a lot of fun @Snowie!! Snowboarding and skiing, it would be cool to try one day 😊.

How are you going today?

Nah I haven’t really worked the problem out but I kind of just remembered another way around it and as for the other thing well I am not sure how I am going to tackle that. Should have just never have started it but I guess you live and you learn as they say. You can always be so cautious but not cautious enough I guess. Always something that gets you from just around the corner you weren’t expecting. Anyway a bit of a rant sorry probably won’t make sense 😌. It’s ok though all good just have to accept how things are.

hmm yeah interesting about meds think I am in an interesting spot of wondering what’s the point of meds and therapy at the moment. Always been super motivated re personal growth and possible better but I think I am just realistic. Never have I sugar coated things and see things as they are. Ah well not to worry. 😊

I hope you week goes okay with your appointments and your mums. I hope she is doing ok too 🫶

We've been going to the snow for a long time @Chasingsunsets My kids were 2 and 4 when they first skied, so have grown up doing it.

Yes we do have to accept things for how they are, but that doesn't make it any easier. It can still be a challenge and affect us in lots of different ways. If it helps to rant then go for it.

I can relate to wondering if meds and therapy are helping. Many a time have I thought about it. Sometimes I just look at my meds and have an internal battle about weather I take them or not.

It can be a very hard place to be in.

Hey @Bow hows your day going?

I am alright thanks for asking 🙏

I hear you with the chopping and changing. The word vulnerability comes up when I was reading what you wrote and that’s how I feel. Constantly watching for danger, I have had people build me up but also be the ones that destroyed me. It’s interesting right.

I am always looking for safety, I wonder if you are too? (I just read further down, interesting you write about safety too). Also my intentions are often misunderstood so now that I am aware that I get misunderstood often it’s another worry I always have. That’s why the masks I wear are so good, don’t get hurt and don’t have to worry about being misunderstood I guess. My life has been way too intense for people to handle or understand I’d have to say so just got to rein it in. You said you put in complaints and got you nowhere. Sorry that happened.

The plan you guys made with your social worker sounds great. Happy to hear how it all goes if you want to share. Oh yeah over the handlebars of life’s bike, ha just an analogy of how life feels at times. Pretty tired 😴 Lovely chatting ☀️

Thats an awesome family tradition @Snowie going for the snow for so long! You would have built some really great memories! What other things do you enjoy doing?

You are very wise snowie, thanks for your post ☀️. I often feel trapped so thanks for listening to my rant even if it doesn’t make sense, it means a lot thankyou 🌻