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@Nala2022 Hello Nala how are you? I missed you yesterday.

Im very panicked and anxious. It’s hard being like this all the time. There’s a lot I’m dealing with and it’s overwhelming me. I have to sit with this alone. It’s terribly difficult. I’m trying to do as you’ve suggested. I keep trying hoping each time will make it easier. I just really do need human connection.

It's really nice to hear from you. I'm doing okay, thank you for asking @Cuddlebear

I'm so sorry to hear you're still carrying so much panic and anxiety

I also want to acknowledge what you said about needing human connection. We aren't meant to carry everything on our own, and I'm really glad you've reached out here today instead of sitting with it completely by yourself

It also sounds like you've been putting in a lot of effort to keep trying the strategies we've talked about, even though they're not bringing the relief you're hoping for right now. That takes a lot of strength, so please don't lose sight of that. Reach out to any of your supports if you need to today 💛

@Nala2022 Thank you Nala. Thank you for understanding and encouraging me. I am trying because it’s something that can help me. All I really have are places like Lifeline which are a bit hit and miss. And they generally send me links to places that can’t help which just makes me feel worse. The human connection comes from here. I keep trying it’s just awful I don’t get a break at all. It’s constant. I don’t know if anybody else has had same experience. And if so what helped them to stop them being unwell everyday without a break.

Hi @Cuddlebear, I'm just catching up on your reply now.

It really sounds like things have been incredibly tough, and I can hear how much you're longing for some relief. I'm glad you've continued reaching out here, and I hope you know you don't have to carry this completely on your own

How have things been since yesterday? 💛

@Nala2022 Hello friend. How are you? Did you have a good day yesterday after your shift?

i am still not good. It’s all the same with a lot of panic anxiety and depression. I’m doing my best to reach out here. Really need some hope and connection. Need to try to get through each day like this it’s so hard.

Hi @Cuddlebear

I'm sorry I've been off for a couple of days.

I'm doing well thank you, just trying to stay warm in this cold weather!

I'm really sorry to hear things are still feeling so difficult. It sounds like you're doing your best to keep reaching out for connection, even though things have been incredibly hard

How are you going today? Do you have any plans for the weekend? 💛

@Nala2022 Hello how are you? Have you had a good week?

Im really stuck in this awful situation. I don’t do anything Nala I simply can’t. I’m home and I just try to get through the day. The physical symptoms are relentless for me. And I have chronic medical conditions that compound it all. It’s hard and the road is lonely. I do try so hard. I’m worn out. I try to keep connecting here. People are kind. I need kindness and hope.

Sending you some <3 @Cuddlebear I know it's so, so hard. We are here for you hun x

@Jynx Hello *waves*. How are you? It’s a bit of a gloomy night here on the forums but that’s ok we can support one another. I can’t believe I’ve been like this for a year. I’ve sat in an awful state with not one moment of relief for a good 12 months. No services to access apparently they are just designed for mild to moderate. Personally, I’ve given up hope of any change. I’m still doing that taper and no longer think the new meds are doing any good at all. Apparently to get better you have to have money. My rent goes up next month by $173 a month for a run down flat. I guess it’s better than being homeless but I’m going to have to decide which utility to cut. Likely the gas. I’ll need to find somewhere else to shower or just use wipes. I’m looking at rehoming by bird and cat. They’ve found some brain damage too. Public neurologist is over a year wait. Artery disease getting worse.

The financial barriers are so awful aren't they @Cuddlebear - I'm sorry that you're having to give up the basics just to survive. Baby-wipe showers should only be for camping, not for regular hygiene at home! How frustrating, unfair, and overwhelming. I'm sorry that it's so hard and that you are fighting such an uphill battle. We are in your corner every step of the way hun <3