Hi @CheerBear,
This is a bit of a quick flyby just to check in and check that you haven't had any bus squishing. I agree that weekends (and especially long weekends) tend to be safe non-bus times.
I am still playing with data. I have to get it done before I head off to change the world on Monday. I super wish I could tell you all about my change the world adventure. I will share the bits I can when I can. I figure I might tell you the general geographical location of where I am when I get there, and then after I've left, I will tell you more about where I was. Alas, I can't share the actual world-changing bit, but I'm planning to do something fun on the Monday (world changing doesn't actually start until Tuesday) and I will be able to tell you about that after I've done it. Yay for being able to do things together but not and share the doing of them after they're done. 
Panic waves/jolts super suck. Yep, trauma is definitely stored in the body!
Yoga-ing will be happening sometime soon. I hurt my arm, that's why yoga-ing hasn't been happening. It is super bugging me. Violining starts this coming Friday - yay! My volunteering gig is still a few weeks away as they give the kids a bit of time to settle back into the school routine before starting.
I totally hear what you are saying about the diagnosis bus. I think it would be super unhelpful for a psychiatrist to suggest a diagnosis contrary to that of your long-term psychologist, after an initial meeting. I can super hear the scariness and frustration around this. I guess I should be grateful that I am so unbelievably "borderline" that pretty much no one really ever questions it (we just debate whether it should be called BPD or C-PTSD). 
I believe that understanding early history is superly duperly important in understanding and thereby managing present banana brain issues. I wonder where you've been getting positive encouragement about that from - must be from some super wise individual.
I guess the tricky thing is that a MH professional can only develop a hypothesis about the issues based on the information they are given. If the client doesn't share something, then this cannot be considered when coming up with a diagnosis. Sadly, MH professionals aren't psychic (I super wish TTT was psychic!!!!). Sadly, if we want someone to help us fit together the pieces of the puzzle, we need to give them the pieces. I know how super super super hard it is to give them all the pieces - especially if you have done it a bazillion times before! I so badly wish you could still have your lifejacket.
I love that you started a sentence with "long story short" and then apologised for the long story.
Ok, well I need to get back to playing with data so that I can get it done before I go to change the world! I am super looking forward to doing the change the world adventure with you together-but-not. I love how I often get the thought of "I must tell CheerBear that" when I'm having adventures. It superly duperly helps me to feel less alone in the world. I'm super glad our oceans collided.
I super hope you are having as calm and as bus-free a day as I am. 
