@CheerBear Ooooh we are here together but not in real time!!!!
Do you want to know something super funny? You started your post with this: I was having a quick sneak out for a sit in the garden and I read it a bit too quickly such that I saw an "h" after the "s" in the word "sit." It made me do a double-take and then I giggled A LOT. 
I was reading over there --> this morning that today has dawned a bit brighter for you. I'm super pleased about this. I can only imagine how scary it must be to be losing that piece of paper and I can see how superly duperly hard it would be to sit with that out-of-your-control muddle. 
I also read over there about how it was a person in blue who got the piece of paper even though you asked them not to. I have big issues with that whole idea that people in blue can do that. I can imagine how horribly scary and disempowering that would be. 
I am super glad one of the LF reminded you last night about how not ok they would be to stay at the other place for longer than they really needed to. Silly mashed banana brain for suggesting otherwise!
I didn't desquish any squishy toys today! I cuddled turtle, teddy and weighted toy all session. I started off snuggled under the blanket, but as I got more settled, I was moving around a lot and may possibly have finished up kind-of doing the legs up the wall thing against the wall behind the couch.
I did play with TTT's magic toy and explained to her how the "magic" worked. I super like that toy.
I'm seeing her again on Tuesday as we do that tricky thing of finding a regular appointment time. The appointments will be a bit all over the place for a few weeks, and then we are aiming for a regular Monday morning time slot.
Re-telling the story is SO hard. However, most of my muddle is written down in various places so it's more a matter of TTT getting a general gist of it from the written information and then me just filling in the blanks. Having stuff written down helps a LOT!
The ethical dilemma of Fred is definitely tricky and right now TTT is struggling a little with it. However, this is why Fred is called Fred. So long as she doesn't know his name, TTT can't report him. I explained to her my reasons for choosing not to report him and at this point she has put it in the "we will keep revisiting this" box. Given how little of the story she knows right now, methinks we will be opening that box fairly frequently for a while. However, she definitely understands my reasons for choosing not to make a complaint and I feel safe that she wouldn't super complicate my life by going down that path even if she could. But yes, it is scary and tricky needing to talk about something but knowing that doing so is super risky! 
I can well imagine how much you understand that, CheerBear.
