Riding a wave

I want NikNik. I want Lauz. I super super super super want CherryBomb. I don't understand. I need someone to understand this muddle in the context of my story. I am in total crisis now.

Would it help if I give you the keys to the Secret Nutella Stash @Phoenix_Rising - you could hide in there until there is someone watching the ocean

I got hung up on. The HC was the only place in the world that never hung up on me and now they do. I am in utter crisis and there is no-one.

I want CherryBomb @Zoe7 and @CheerBear. I want her to play like she used to. Everything used to feel so safe. She could shift the most gigantic feelings. What changed? I don't understand.

I don't understand. I don't understand. This is my entire history playing out all over again. This is the only place in the world that I feel safe and now I don't.

I don't either little turtle but CB and I aren't going anywhere @Phoenix_Rising - sorry but you are stuck with us

The relationships here were the only thing that kept me going after (P) died. And now they have changed and they aren't here. I have nothing. X has happened and the relationships that were keeping me here are no more.

Yes, I am here too for what it’s worth. I just got to Forum Land and I’m wondering if I should put the book-pod in reverse and head back the way I came. I don’t like change. I especially don’t like change that doesn’t make sense and I super especially don’t like change that affects safety when there is almost no safety already.

Sitting with you in the gigantic feelings, @Phoenix_Rising.

I'm so confused. Why does everybody just leave. None of this makes any sense. I want NikNik. I want CherryBomb. I want the Forum Land of six months ago. What the hell has happened here lately?