Riding a wave

Hi @CheerBear,

I am part-way through my next post. I am drafting my posts in wordpad. I love the idea of you working on an overview of the modules. I will post my next bit on Monday morning.

Yeah...it is tricky wanting to dive right in and yet knowing the schedule is designed the way it is for good reasons. I think we really need to start with mindfulness because it underpins all of the other modules. I told you that my turtle whisperer told me to forget everything else and go straight to ER didn't I. This could end up working well! We could start with mindfulness on the thread while you simultaneously work on the DT module and I simultaneously work on the ER module, and then we can work through those modules again together here in Forum Land when we get up to them on the thread.

Psssst @CheerBear and @Faith-and-Hope, I think I just got a gigantic bucket of cold water thrown over my happiness of @NikNik celebrating me last week. It is in the forum feedback area. Now is a super good chance for me to practice my DBT skills: I'm ok, not everybody will like me and that's ok, just because some people don't like me, this doesn't make either me or them bad people - we are just super different, and that's ok.

I can hear CherryBomb telling me in a loud voice to never stop being me. It's totally ok to be me. Yay for being me. And yay for this cool chance to practice my distress tolerance skills.

It is a super sunny day here in Sydney and I have a bazillion things to do AND the energy to do them, so I don't plan to be around in Forum Land too much. All is well.

@CheerBear @Faith-and-Hope my day went from super good to super bad.

I super need to totally stay away from Forum Land over the weekends. I think you were right about this morning's muddle CheerBear, but now I've got myself into another, much bigger, muddle. The moderator pulled a post and I have no idea why. When I tried to seek clarification, she said that there is nothing overtly wrong with what I said...but that it breaches the guideline of respect. How does that make any sense? If she herself admits there is nothing overtly wrong with it, how the heck can it breach the guidelines??? I cannot begin to tell you how much this isn't computing in my aspie brain!!! I super super super want @NikNik @Former-Member or @Former-Member right now.

I've gone from sitting in the sunshine writing the next bit for our DBT adventure, to crying, rocking and stimming. I super super super wish I had someone to call right now. This is the problem with the weekends. If this happened during the week, I could call the SANE help centre. Now I am totally stuck.

I managed this morning's big feeling fine, but this one is swamping me. And thus endeth Phoenix_Rising's calm and productive day.

I know today is a tough day for you CheerBear. I super hope you are doing ok at staying in the moment. I'm currently using the ER skill of recognising I am completely overloaded and thus need to just bunker down and ride out the waves. How can a day go from so good to so bad in a moment!!! I only came on here for ten minutes as a reward for having got through two-thirds of what I wanted to get through. It's now not looking hopeful that the final third will get done today. Yep, I definitely need to work harder at staying off the forums from the end of Friday Feast through to Monday morning.

The waves are super super super big. They are super super SUPER big. I so very badly need to talk it through...and there is nobody.

Hi @Phoenix_Rising ...... I can see where the post has been pulled, and I think I understand it. Can I have a go at walking through this with you ?

@Faith-and-Hope I'm scared of saying anything else wrong. I don't want to create another muddle in Forum Land. I so very very very badly wish the helpcentre was open. I so very badly need to talk it through.

I'm super super flooded. I don't understand at all. I feel all icky. @Faith-and-Hope

@Faith-and-Hope @CheerBear I think if we talk about it, it is likely to escalate it more because some of the muddle is tied up in my deepest muddle. I super badly wish my turtle whisperer was here, or @Former-Member or @Former-Member. I'm never going to understand this world. I get in trouble for telling people who I love, that I love them, and I get in trouble for telling people who I don't love, that I don't love them. The social world simply makes no sense to me at all.