borderline

Borderline

To the psychiatric hospital

I was abruptly sent

To the psychiatrist

I so quickly went

Borderline Personality disorder

The decision had been made

As through the mucky waters of my mind

They did have to wade

At first I didn’t accept it

Because it sounded so silly

But they said it was because

My behaviour was so willy nilly

It was a worry

As I had symptoms Of cluster B

As I was highly emotional

And it was something they could see

I did not believe it

And I so very much resisted

But in therapy it was discussed

And BPD was insisted

I did not like that diagnosis

As it sounded so very weak

So through other therapists

Another diagnosis I did seek

They said it was that I didn’t have strength

And it was something I didn’t lack

But they said it was because of my childhood

They could see in my history

When they looked back

They say a big part is fear of abandonment

Which I didn’t understand

As my childhood was very good

With my parents holding my hand

There is something in my history

But I do not remember

That triggered the so called BPD

And caused my mind to tremor

Obviously talking to my loved ones

Was something they had to do

And in doing so

Had given them a clue

The diagnosis of BPD

Has helped me feel relief

But I still sincerely think

That there is something else there

And that is my belief