ForestPhoenixCasual Contributor
Son in hospital again, broken heart
Hi, just needed to tell someone. I have 3 beautiful sons. They were all going well, doing well at school, had good friends. Then two became mentally ill 3 years ago. They were 18 and 21. The younger one dropped out of year 12 (he was topping classes before that). The older one left uni. Then the older one hit rock bottom, but survived and is now on the rocky road to recovery. He has to deal with lots of med side effects. Long way to go, but, he never refused treatment.
The younger one however has had anosognosia from the start and still does not believe he needs any form of help. He has been involuntarily admitted to hospital 3 times before (he was dangerous) and again today. He has been on various depot meds which haven't worked or have had nasty side effects. The one he's on now obviously isn't working. He is elevated, and speaks constantly and angrily. A lot of what he says doesn't make sense.
He has to have depot because he won't take tablets. He may need ECT next.
Of course he is irate to be in there again. We (husband and I) are very upset he is in there too (although we had to organise the ambulance). There's almost nothing to do on the psych ward here and the staff hide behind glass most of the time - there is one small opening to speak to them through. I feel my son's traumas are multiplying.
My heart is covered in wounds and scars. My sister and brother didn't bother to visit him last time in hospital (they live close). He was there for a month.
I bet if it was cancer ppl would rush in from all over. The double standard for ppl with mental illness makes me want to slam my fist through a wall. I won't though, I need my hand.
Just so sad, and I really love my kids.
