Depression- Really Struggling- may be triggering

ok @NikNik yeah i am. the forums are great

@Former-Member This could be a really stupid question and I may have missed something along the line, but why do you keep living with people who seem to hate you? I'm guessing it is probably due to finances or something - that seems to be the most common reason people stay in difficult situations. You don't have to answer if you don't want to. I just know that as difficult as I find it being alone, it is a million times better than it would be for me to try to live with others.

AWWW @Zoe7 my beautiful guardian butterfly

that means so much to me . i consider you guys on here family too. i have exposed more on here than with my own off screen family. if only i could reach through the screen and hug you

i hope you ahve accepted that name, you are very worthy of it and have been through a low point and look here you are again, despite having your own troubles . i feel very close to you as well adn would do anything i could to help you through whatever your going through

hopefully ive helped you in something ive said as well. i love being here for people esp when they need it the most. ive started becoming closer to more people such as @Phoenix_Rising @Faith-and-Hope @utopia @Former-Member and many more.

ive been struggling so much and its killing me (literally as its physical pain too)

Even though i dont think that about myself im glad someone else, esp coming from my guardian butterfly, thinks that. it truely means alot to me

P.S i hope you dont mind me calling you that, i can stop if you want me to, no offence taken

im only living with them temporary, until my mum, her boyfriend and 2 sisters find their own house - currently looking. and when they move out ill be here with my pop as itll make it less travelling around and itll kepp pop company and i can do my caring job better. so until them im kinda stuck @Phoenix_Rising

@Former-Member

ive been told that many a time but doesnt seem to sink in, i guess my brain either doesnt want to accept it or i just cant accept it for some reason. i dont really know. you make a very good point though. im so use to having these resposibilities as well- im20 and started caring at 16 and my sisters ive always had the sister looking after role but as i got older i guess everyone took advantage of it and they still very much too.

I am learning to accept it lol @Former-Member It is one of the sweetest things anyone has ever said to me and I'm not very good at accepting nice things being said about me - I think you can relate to that.

You're like my little baby caterpillar - struggling to find her way in her coccoon, struggling to know how to break free, struggling to see the light. But inside that little caterpillar beats a heart of gold, a strength that will push through the coccoon wall and a wisdom that will lead her out of the darkness and into the light.

...and I will be more than proud to stand beside you, watch you grow your wings and to be able to fly.

Zoe

Hi @Former-Member been around long enough to understand exactly what you've been feeling. But I'd like to tell you that you have helped me and I have valued your opinions whenever I have visited the forums. Been absent for a couple of days, me stuff, but I was obviously meant to hear from you so I could tell you about YOUR self worth.

Listen to @Zoe7 she knows what she is talking about. Probably doesn't even remember me but helped me with words of what I would call empathetic wisdom.

Everyone listening to you @Former-Member @Phoenix_Rising @NikNik all understand so keep talking.

Just wish I too could look forward to srious sleep. It will help.

Oh @Baileyboy of course I remember you. It has been a while since I have seen you around though - I haven't been 'myself' for a while either though!

They are such loving words from you - thankyou. I don't remember doing too much to help you out but I must have said something right! That means a lot How are you doing - still not sleeping and hating the nights too?