Job search depression

How was this week going for you @Ruby26 ? I know you said you'll have a break from job searching.

Have you been up to much else?

@Blackcloud aw, thank you so much for all your kindness. Your friendship means so much to me. I'm always here for you and looking out for you too. I'm sorry that I'm slow to reply, I do really appreciate all your messages and all your understanding and acceptance.

I'm really sorry you've experienced such a bad impact from trauma too. No one should ever have to get used to have depression, anxiety and isolation. I'm sorry that life has been so hard for you and that people were mean to you at school.

I hope things get better for you soon. You deserve to have things to look forward to in this life. The best in life and love and happiness is ahead of you. I've been in a long-time state of hopelessness before, and it can and does get better.

What things do you enjoy doing?

@tyme it's been a difficult week, but I did manage to still get a lot done. I've been very busy with advocacy projects, and I've started rehearsals for a musical theatre production.

What have you been up to? How is the job search stuff going for you?

@Ruby26 aww our friendship means so much to me too 💗 and don’t worry my friend, it’s ok to come back and respond whenever you can and whenever you have the energy or spoons to do so. It’s common for us NDs to have a lot of days (even everyday especially I would think?) where we are very much overwhelmed like..around 80-90% of the time perhaps 😊😌

I really appreciate your lovely and kind/warm words as (from your third paragraph) I needed to hear that today ❤️ I think with the increased funding that I’m getting on my new plan - which hopefully means increased support work hours and days that that can mean that I’m possibly making a bit of progress in life, as i know I really do need that regular support to reduce that feeling of loneliness and negative thoughts/SI & maladaptive daydreams of a certain idol I have a crush on that obviously is never gonna happen in real life (this part is the main reason why I wanted to seek a psychologist for it)

that’s hard to answer to be really honest. There’s nothing in life I do that brings me joy as I just lay in bed whilst doomscrolling 😂 I mean I guess I lowkey do like going out for walks but only when the weather isn’t very hot though hehe - which is why I can’t wait until winter comes! ❄️

I feel like keeping myself busy and distracted like for example - working on assignments from a course I’m studying helps distract me from all of those feelings and thoughts I keep getting

I just look at jobs here and there @Ruby26 . I have no intention of changes jobs or anything. It's just interesting to know what's out there.

I'm still doing the volunteering. It's been good. I can't complain.

Things comes, things go. I'm in a good place.

Musical production sounds interesting! I LOVE musicals. I'm waiting for the next kid friendly musical so I can book it for my nieces and nephew.

@Blackcloud thanks for your understanding. Yes, being overwhelmed 80-90% of the time sounds about right lol.

I'm glad what I said helped. You are a lovely and kind person yourself. I'm also glad you have this extra funding- getting the right support is important.

I have an issue with idealising people in my life and then crashing hard when I finally realise that they aren't who I thought they were and have actually been thinking very poorly of me for a long time. I just can't read sometimes that I can love and admire another person, yet I mean nothing to them. I should get professional help for this as it gets really out of hand. I'm scared of seeing psychologists.

I'm sorry that there isn't a lot in life that brings you joy. I wonder if your support worker can help you try out a variety of activities and see what works for you? Psychologists can help with finding resources for trying out new things during time on your own too. It doesn't have to be anything super social or impressive, just little things that bring some happiness into your life. You deserve to be happy my friend.

@Ruby26 for me I’ve been having the thing of idealising certain people I have a crush on or that I’m obsessed with for most of my life. About seeing a psychologist, there’s actually psychologists who are NDs themselves that use a neuroaffirming approach that you can look up on — that’s what I did and that was what led me to see my current psych that fits exactly what I’m looking for! Perhaps you might consider doing that too? You might find that the one that has a lived experience who uses that approach can be a really great fit! You never know till you try 🙂 of course, no pressure if you’re not ready or not comfortable with it!😊

As an ND I find that seeing professionals that use the traditional approach really unhelpful for my needs and they’re usually really patronising. Almost everytime I’ve had a session with them I was often left with feelings of being invalidated and that it was my fault for being different, even when you tried explaining to them why you’re not able to do what they suggest you do - but instead of them taking their times to understand your reasoning, instead they would be really dismissive of it and would overall make you feel a lot worse after.
So for me I’d rather avoid these MH professionals like the plague and only rely on the ones that have a lived experience with a neuroaffirming approach and care. ❤️

@Blackcloud I've tried to find neurodivergent therapists before, but it's hard to find one based in Australia. I had an autistic mentor who was fantastic but then she died and there doesn't seem to be any other similar service available.

I'm glad you have a better psychologist now. Therapists who are invalidating are terrible.

@Ruby26 (in case if the forum guidelines doesn't allow me to mention a specific service otherwise) there's actually services that have ND psychologists that based in australia that are available. One of them being Neudle Psychology which is the one I currently see a psychologist from -- they're amazing for ND individuals/clients! I highly recommend it!!

You can look more into it via the link below! 🙂 They offer MHCP via medicare rebate sessions that you can get your GP to get a MHCP from. The sessions are obviously expensive, but even via MHCP with medicare rebate its still a lot cheaper than the full costs.

click here

@Blackcloud thank you so much for the recommendation, that's very helpful to know.