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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

TW what’s been going on

TW what’s been going on

2025 was really bad i felt like i lost all my friends for almost the whole year

i couldn’t get out of bed for days

and i thought about SI nearly every day

i was always there for my friends

but they left me when i needed them

im closer to them now because i became more confident

everything seemed to be going well

but at the start of 2026 i told myself i would change

but i just started drinking and smoking

the thoughts of SI are getting worse and worse every day

i do nothing i cant even get the energy to make my bed or vacuum my room

i haven’t been able to get tired so i haven’t been sleeping

my anger’s been getting worse i break everything and kick holes in the walls it makes me embarrassed

the tiniest thing will happen and i’ll just take it out on anything near me

and i’ve been overeating on anything i can find

i want to get help but im not sure why im scared to even talk to a therapist

idk what to do anymore

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Re: TW what’s been going on

Hi @isla2

Firstly welcome to the forums!

We're really glad you shared this. What you went through sounds incredibly heavy, losing friends when you needed them most, carrying everything alone, and still trying to push forward. It sounds like you’ve been overwhelmed for a long time, and your mind and body are exhausted.

The anger, not sleeping, overeating, drinking, those are all signs you’re hurting, not failing. Being scared to talk to a therapist is really common too. You don’t have to know what to say; even “I’m not okay and I don’t know where to start” is enough.

If the SI thoughts feel like they’re getting dangerous, please don’t handle that alone. You can always contact 000 for emergency support but there is Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat and Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling.

You deserve support. You’re not alone, the community is here for you too! We'll reach out privately as well.

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Re: TW what’s been going on

Hi @isla2 ,

It sounds really tough with what you are going through at the moment. It takes a lot of courage to reach out and share what's been happening for you.

I hear the tough emotions that come with not knowing what to do.

From your post, I can see you are doing what you can to help yourself, and you also recognise that things are not working for you - this is certainly the first step.

You mentioned you feel scared about reaching out to a therapist etc. Do you feel more comfortable on webchats?

Please know you are not alone. You have the whole community behind you.

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Re: TW what’s been going on

thankyou for the reply, and hearing me out it means a lot, i do feel more comfortable sharing my feelings online because it’s confidential for me, but i am trying to get help at the moment.

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Re: TW what’s been going on

Hey @isla2 ,

Most people have lived experience of mental health challenges. I know I sure have myself! It was a very difficult and lonely time and I was so disconnected from the world.

It was anonymous spaces like this where I could sort of reach out and feel less alone.

You may want to keep your eye on SANE's Recovery Club https://www.sane.org/recovery-club

Although it's not currently open for new applications, it will be soon. Feel free to keep your eye on it for when it opens. It's self guided and includes 6 months of support including some 1:1 sessions with a psycho-social support facilitator.

You deserve all the support you can get.

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Re: TW what’s been going on

Hey @isla2 , just popping in to see how things are going for you. Hope you are okay.

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Re: TW what’s been going on

Thankyou, I'm waiting to get in touch with a therapist at the moment, unfortunately I have gotten worse in certain aspects I have picked up new habits and have found myself getting more angry at little things, I try to spend as much time with my friends as I can but its getting harder to maintain everything.

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Re: TW what’s been going on

Do you find spending time with friend helpful? What else keeps you going or things you enjoy? @isla2

I'm curious to hear maybe a bit of an example of something you perhaps have been angry at? I wonder if we can consider other perspectives and unpack it a little? (Only if you think it is helpful)

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Re: TW what’s been going on

Hi @isla2 & @tyme ,

Just popping by to send my support and understanding. Feel free to tag me if you'd like my inputs / support / companionship through this too.

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Re: TW what’s been going on

Thinking about you @isla2

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