Sunday Coffee and Chat -- 21st December 2025

Hi @Cuddlebear

No more thunderstorms but I think more rain is on its way.

I hope today is going a little better for you 💗

I got a message from the supervisor today after I told him that I didn’t request for a resignation and all that stuff. Obviously I won’t copy and paste the whole email but this is part of what he said that is now making me go like “ok great. So I will definitely NOT return then 😌”

“If you choose to return, please understand you cannot terminate interactions to protect yourself – part of the nature and dynamic of the [company name] service is the boundaries are quite wide, and you will need to sit through uncomfortable interactions and be able to leave these behind you when you finish shift.”

yeah no lmao so I’ll definitely confirm my resignation then 🤣🤣

@MissGremlin @Cuddlebear @rav3n @Jynx @REDLINEZ750 @AlwaysMyself @Chasingsunsets @ENKELI

I'm sorry that their operations aren't the right fit for you @Blackcloud , but I am glad they are giving you the choice/decision of whether or not you want/can work within their operations-policy or to resign the role.

I imagine (and from reading your posts of course) it is not an easy decision emotionally, and may provoke feelings of anger, "unable"/"failure" (i am not saying this is true! Just thinking it could be a depressed-mind response pattern), grief (lost opportunity), and hurt from your needs not being accounted for by them.

To me it sounds like your decision to resign the role is wise, given they cannot be flexible to accommodate your anxiety and trauma response.

I do believe you will be able to find a way to volunteer/work within your passion elsewhere though. They are not the only option, and your skills can be so beneficial in many places.

Can i ask what your DREAM (ideal, even if not realistic!) role would look like?

@AlwaysMyself The moment the supervisor included that if I agree to the following terms that he included on the email today that I let him know by responding, but nope, I said I don’t agree and to feel free to let me go 😌

yeah I think the moment that him and I started chatting since a few weeks ago there’s been a lot of moments where most or some of his responses to my honest thoughts about the company’s specific rule of needing to sit through the uncomfortable interactions made me roll my eyes & of course has brought up feelings of disappointment and frustration.

And I can feel that my rights definitely weren’t being met either! I even specifically mentioned that on the email yesterday to him as well but according to his response today, it seems that he doesn’t acknowledge that either or doesn’t care (when I mentioned I’ve been treated like I don’t deserve to have my own rights) but at the same time its obvious that he’s following some sort of script just in order to meet the company’s protocols and their KPIs. 🤷‍♀️

my dream role is to actually be part of the entertainment industry, however I’ve never had an attempt in getting any sorts of lessons (dance lessons especially) from a young age to have the skills in being part of that sort of industry. I sing on my own all the time in my room but would never like to do anything in public that involves singing (like be a musician/singer) lol cause it’s embarrassing & the thought of being well known by strangers is scary…

It doesn’t help that having past horrible experiences in school (from people that treated me like sh^t) + having major anxieties + having no real/genuine long-term friendships in my life would get me anywhere in being confident to try and pursue that sort of thing.

I just got accepted into this filmmaking program that’s specifically catered towards people that have intellectual disabilities + autism. I hope by the time I join that program that starts on 31st January next year, that I’ll be able to get some bit of experience in filmmaking & hopefully connect with other participants there. I do hope that I can get a support worker to come and drive me to that program and then drive me back home every single week, since that program is held on every saturdays.

Ooohh that filmmaking program sounds a good opportunity! 😍 i lool forward to hearing more about it when it starts -- not long now! @Blackcloud

And def a way into the entertainment industry 🥰.

Never too old to learn to dance - whether for pleasure or for possible work, or for both!

Thankyou friend @AlwaysMyself how’s today been going for you at the moment? ☺️

Ooh my support button is working again! It was on the fritz earlier today. @Blackcloud

A bit of a frustraiting midday, but kept my calm and negotiated to complete/contact the 2 things i needed to do.

One dog has been telling me she wants dinner for the last hour... but its still 30min till their dinner time. So im distracting her by playing rough with her on the floor.

Oof I can imagine how much of a pain and annoying that is to deal with a dog that’s begging for dinner at least an hour before the actual thing 😂 it’s great that you managed to distract it and making sure they don’t hassle you again 😌

I’ve just been napping within the last hour and just woke up from 10 mins before I’ve started responding to you 😴

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@AlwaysMyself wrote:

Ooohh that filmmaking program sounds a good opportunity! 😍 i lool forward to hearing more about it when it starts -- not long now! @Blackcloud

And def a way into the entertainment industry 🥰.

Never too old to learn to dance - whether for pleasure or for possible work, or for both!

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@AlwaysMyself its so sad cause sometimes i really wish i was more emotionally stable especially if i wanna be a public figure of some sort whenever I'm expected to face some sort of scrutiny/hate/dislike from some people in the general public no matter what i do. however, i 100% blame ALL the people i went to school with that treated me unfairly (in other words, treated me the way i did NOT deserve to be treated) and bullied me to the point where I've been too scared to wanting to show/display myself in any type of way in the sense of me wanting to be a public figure, i hope that makes sense. It's even worse that I've never had any support from friends that I thought I would trust either. It makes me sad, frustrated and jealous everytime I think about wanting to do something like this that involves what I've been dreaming of for a long time/while.

Hey @Blackcloud, it's understandable that being bullied when you were younger has impacted you to this day. This is the case for many of us unfortunately, but know that you aren't alone in your experience 🍃

I am hearing the bullying has impacted your ability to display yourself in a certain type of way, which has made you feel like you couldn't be a public figure (despite wanting to be one). Being a public figure comes with a lot, one being scrutiny from others like you mentioned, and it sounds like you don't feel emotionally stable enough to follow this aspiration of yours.

While being emotionally stable is so valid to want, personally I don't think that anyone is stable enough to endure such intense scrutiny (especially with the added layer of the internet). But there are absolutely ways that public figures are able to cope through this. And if it's something that you want and have dreamt about, we encourage you to follow your passion! It's never too late to follow your dreams 🌠