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alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor04 Dec 2025, 4:28 am AEDT

alone where family should have been finds siblings known but never seen

this will be my last sunset from my room this summer and this is my last night where my lion demands my attention and through one look says you packed that bag again how long dont think i dont know.

i just want to say in one spot not over many threads im not afraid because of you all.

i am only able to take this journey because of you all and you need to know you really are valuable part of peoples lives even though not in person you are somehow more real than those with faces.

hell you even have faces in an aura presence kinda way i notice if you guys havent noticed every individual has various struggles every day and somehow know where the support is needed more from a post and that person is shown care, support comfort and given space to safely share what ever they do or dont want to while sharing laughs, positive picture things and genuine care for each other.

i could go on

iwont

need try sleep last night in my bed this summer too and its ok because you my forum family have been taking my rants and fears and insecurity,raw unfiltered over sharing and knowledge of my mistake with patience understandinfg and without them things id still be falling because no one else was reaching to slow me down and find a path back out.

on upside im no comms for at least 10days so i want to post this here for you guys so all know you are appreciated, you know who you are and @moderators all of you, peer guides and supports really for me ive felt such a sense of belonging i thought was lost by losing contact with family.

not one of you asked why i need to do this you know, think about where else so many people dont want to know such things as a whole, for someone thats struggled with addiction since 15 i noticed it and its a first you are truly non judgemental and have made a positive impact for me so please know your worth.

i also thought if this is here you and i know where to go see the pookinator if you want see him before i get to again.

im only going tag a few so it doesnt look like i missed a few out im going leave a shitload out and i think they will tag others and so on and if not maybe they stumble acyoss it, sorry for typos and grammar just smashing this out and lying down few hours with me mate before car gets here 7.50. deep exhale

@tyme @TAB @Glisten @ENKELI @Chasingsunsets @MissGremlin @heartathome @Mustang67 @rav3n @Appleblossom @AuntGlow @Shaz51 please let those not here know i meant nothing by leaving them out and all the support team are part of the family i speak of as they see more than others hehehee night guys will try get on before handing phone over

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ENKELISenior Contributor27 Mar 2026, 8:46 pm AEDT

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@Appleblossom simple and basic is the best, especially at the end of the week.

I found some beef and cheese pies in the freezer so that's what's on the menu here! Your stir fry sounds better though.

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 10:33 am AEDT

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@ENKELI @Appleblossom @heartathome I'm ok, I realized I lost my medication to bring home on weekend leave when it was time to take it , said I hate myself I hate my life Im just useless then caught myself and apologized to Jesus for saying such things and that I'm truly grateful for my physical health and the day.

Then Im in a late night Drs clinic that gave me prescriptions for what I need as I had a copy of my health summary that shows what I'm prescribed and I wasn't asking for any of s8s and a 24hr chemist had them in stock.

God's grace is made strongest in our weakness @Realness

Stirfry! Beef and cheese pies!

I burnt toast then got dominoes which is when I realized I'd lost my bag of medications, I would of had to go back to rehab facility this morning as missing 1 dose has negative results for a few days I can't risk missing 2 days straight and would of missed attending my beautiful place to worship in the mountains tomorrow and spent less time with pookie...

Sorry for novel length post, your in my thoughts and prayers as are my entire forum siblings

https://youtu.be/d1acEVmnVhI?si=IcEtqRoQgyuCJRd9

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 11:51 am AEDT

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done on laptop

@heartathome @ENKELI @Appleblossom @Bunniekins @Chasingsunsets @Realness

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AlwaysMyselfSenior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 12:11 pm AEDT

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@REDLINEZ750 re: Discarded poem.

Beautiful and soulfully sad all at once. It sounds like a really painful past relationship, but also that you have great insight now into what was happening in hindsight. I believe insight is a powerful healing tool (although insight can also be incredibly painful too).

I also wanted to say that i am always so warmed and glad for the safe friendship you and @heartathome have developed here. It is so lovely to see how you both "get" (or seek to understand when you don't) and show enduring support for each other. 😍🤗.

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 12:45 pm AEDT

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Your part of the fold @AlwaysMyself

Thank you for your words

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 1:14 pm AEDT

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@REDLINEZ750 good morning Red when i see kookas now i think of you 😄 x

heres something i will run past you. two mornings in a row i have heard movement in the living room when it has just been me in the room. today i also heard a young woman humming a song. i think we may have a poltigiest or could it be my schizophrenia? idk it is hard to tell. i am feeling settled in my mind maybe it is break through occurances as my my meds are being brought down.... i dont want to tell my psych as she will put me on more and they are poison.

what do you think?

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heartathomeSenior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 2:08 pm AEDT

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Hey @REDLINEZ750

Sometimes a song says what we don’t have words for yet. You know I'm a lyric person so I asked Sage to tell me about the song.

“Disarm” by The Smashing Pumpkins speaks to how pain from our past can shape us — and how easily it can be passed on.
But it also reminds me there’s a choice to understand, to reflect, and to do things differently.

If this song resonates with you Red, you’re not alone in this journey! Standing beside you my friend!

Happy hippy hugs 💚

@ENKELI @Appleblossom @Realness @Bellaley

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heartathomeSenior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 2:40 pm AEDT

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Beautiful in both lyrics and visual! @REDLINEZ750 The visual looks really peaceful and serine! I love that it's got everything in it; the sun rising, the trees, and the Kookaburra on the fence. I'm so glad that you can see beauty in our world! I feel gratitude when I go on my morning walks as well. The sun rising is awesome! It's such a beautiful and peaceful time of the day! 💚

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heartathomeSenior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 3:22 pm AEDT

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I've been thinking about you a lot lately so it's good to 'see' you! I've been wondering how you are doing. I hope everything is okay!

Thanks for mentioning Red and my friendship @AlwaysMyself I think our friendship is pretty special too! I also love that you are a part of it! Thank you for your input. I think you're our biggest supporter! 😉

@REDLINEZ750 is an amazing person and easy to love! I think everyone on the forums love him! I'm very grateful to God for bringing him across my path. I think it's special that we can both see the sunrise from different areas of Australia. Cool, hey! 💚

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REDLINEZ750Senior Contributor28 Mar 2026, 9:02 pm AEDT

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@Bunniekins I think I would be doing the wrong. Thing to comment on your situation as I have no lived experience and would not want to mislead you for the sake of having an answer...

I do know I believe your a wonderful forumite whom I look forward to hearing from each time you tag me and I know others do too.

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I don't believe our psychs want to poison us it's only sometimes it's the path to less harm and more peace which can only be achieved by being honest, provided you have a good psyche which is something only you can know

Bounce on bunniekins

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