SilverlininContributor
Learning to not overwhelm people
I feel so bad when I realised, a mile a minute, that I should have been more mindful of how much I share information. That's is just generally, but it goes beyond that. I overwhelm people. I need to be more sensible. I beat myself up for affecting them.
I feel like my SANE counsellor left because of me, even though the person told me about their change of journey. I feel like I played a part in the person's decision, that I overwhelmed them. I feel like I need to really consciously put in effort to make changes I've learned from my sessions, so my counselor can see that I'm doing the work. Otherwise, I'd feel like a failure. I didn't want to disappoint them, nor myself.It's just that sometimes, it's so hard. Yes, these feelings are valid, but I'm just making excuses and need a hard kick in the arseee.
Sometimes I just have the urge to need to tell someone. Holding it in is something I need to learn. Perhaps it's ironic that I should not be posting this and keep it to myself.
I know they are counselors, but there are certain things that you can share with the appropriate people, and certain things that are best to keep to yourself, or just generalise.
This is a post I make to put my commitment into not overwhelming people. And I can be more sensible of my choices by being conscious of what I say, or release it through gym, running, meditating.
