Im always the bad person

I wrote a few times about my daughter and events that had occurred at that time. My daughter's relationship with me had never been a good one. She would manipulate me with her anger and her manipulating ways and argue with me until I would almost drop with her nagging and nagging and nagging to get her own way, then she would play the blame game. My eldest daughter left home at 15 to live with my parents just to get away from her sister, so I was alone with this controlling child with no help. To this day she's still manipulating situations and playing blame games to get her way. If I stick up for myself, I am the most horrible mother and grandmother and cut down like branches off a tree and then thrown into the fire to burn.

To explain past events so as to understand the now........ For quite a few years my two sisters would have Christmas with their families, one of my daughters lives 3-hour flight away and the other daughter, the one in question lives 30 minutes away by car. The daughter in question for a number of years had Christmas lunch with her partners family, I then would not see her until boxing day, this happened year after year, and I spent Christmas alone, by myself every time, my sisters didn't know this as they had their own families. Well, guess what her partners family don't want to put on Christmas this year, so my daughter has basically invited herself and family to my place for Christmas dinner. I had had a rough few weeks, both my birds have been very ill because I hatched three out of 12 pekin bantam eggs. When they were able, I put them in a coop with heat plate bedding etc, in the same room as my budgie and cockatiels, the lounge room. I did not know that chick bedding and or chicks can make domestic birds ill. I really thought I was going to lose the Tiel as he is 17, I hand reared him at 2 weeks. So, with two sick birds, appointments for myself, finding new homes for the chicks and my bad back that felt paralysing at times, I couldn't get myself to message my daughter back about her coming up for Christmas because I didn't want the confrontation and the manipulating at that stage. So, I text her back and explained why I hadn't returned her text until a few days later with everything going on. I also said that after having Christmas lunch with my sister and husband when I leave ill pop in after that on my way home, my daughter lives two streets away from my sister. Well didn't I cop it. She said, and I don't really understand this first statement, INTERESTING THAT WAS BY ACCIDET. I MENTIONED AGES AGO ABOUT LUNCH, GUESS YOU FORGOT SO NEVER MIND. GREAT DAY THIS HAS BEEN. IM NOT USING MY PHONE FOR A WHILE, TALK ANOTHER TIME.

If she had a bad day, well so had I have a few bad days with staying up not sleeping trying to calm sick birds down from their respiratory conditions breathing heavy having moments of panic and stress me with bad back and not knowing what was going to happen with finding homes for this 10 day old chicks and all these appointments I had to attend. Not to mention, she only wants Christmas with me because her partners mother won't do Christmas at her place anymore, so she has nowhere to go but me, but I wasn't wanted when she went to her partners family every year when I was left by myself. You know this child of mine never rings me or texts me to see how I am or if I need anything, I lost my job through injury, they said I was a liability, so they go rid of me. my health is not getting better the osteoarthritis chronic torn Rotar cuff and bicep that has dislocated and a bad back. The only time I hear form her is when she wants money or she wants me to do borrow my car for a few days because hers is out of action. I could be on the floor, and she would not know for weeks because she doesn't get in touch with me for anything other for herself. So, my sister asked me if I would like to have Christmas with her this year and I said I may as well because I don't know what my daughter is doing nothing is set in concrete. So, I made my decision said I would come by bearing gifts after leaving from my sister's place, if she was going to her partners parents this year, I again, wouldn't be given a thought.