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just when i thought things were on the up... or at least stable.. then BAM!!

blue_wrenSenior Contributor04 Nov 2025, 11:51 am AEDT

just when i thought things were on the up... or at least stable.. then BAM!!

Hey Sane...

Posting here to put things down on 'paper' and to hopefully get a different perspective. I've been stuck in my head lately, and also in a painful body that's causing frustration and irritability, and also a huge rollercoaster of thoughts!

I was going along really well with mental health - it's been about 8 weeks of adjusting to new medication and the highs and lows that have come with that - but I was starting to see positives and future possibilities and then what seems like out of nowhere ..BAM..I've had a massive spike 😞

I am even embarrassed to book another appointment with my regular psychologist because last time they saw me (only about 2 weeks ago) things were in a good place. I am booked in to see them again next week, but I feel so much shame that the trajectory hasn't continued and it feels like I've taken 100 steps backwards. I am aware enough to intellectually know that this is OK, but I can't get myself to actually *feel* like this is ok.

Has anyone else experienced similar? How do I adjust and crawl through the mess? It feel like it's been such a long time (years and years) of one thing (emotional or physical setback) after the other. I wonder if I will ever not be on such a rollercoaster.

It's really tiring!!

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AuntGlowModerator01 Feb 2026, 9:05 pm AEDT

Re: just when i thought things were on the up... or at least stable.. then BAM!!

Would you feel comfortable emailing or calling us? We can look into it for you and see what accesses you currently have. @blue_wren 🥰

https://www.sane.org/contact-us

In response to: just when i thought things were on the up... or at least stable.. then BAM!!

Ruby26Senior Contributor04 Feb 2026, 2:34 pm AEDT

Re: just when i thought things were on the up... or at least stable.. then BAM!!

@blue_wren I'm sorry you're going through a hard time again. Have you heard back from Sane about getting some more ongoing support from them?

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blue_wrenSenior Contributor06 Mar 2026, 10:41 am AEDT

Re: just when i thought things were on the up... or at least stable.. then BAM!!

Hiya,

I haven't reached out again. I guess I'm not sure how to / sitting in the "i should be able to do it myself" space. But I do think I need some external support.

I would also like to look into some AOD support - is this something SANE offers? I'm not in a financial position to add this to my current regime of psychologist and counsellor that I pay for privately, and they aren't addressing this part of my journey. AA is not a space that I resonate with - I already have a very loud critic/shame voice and I didn't find the program very supportive and actually felt like it was keeping me in a negative space rather, along with that I found the groups to be cliquey, so it's not something I want to explore again.

Is anyone able to offer some alternative support? I'm aware of the SMART recovery, but again haven't found a group / session that feels right for me.

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