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Don’t know where else to go..

SleeplessRavenSenior Contributor16 Oct 2025, 11:52 am AEDT

Don’t know where else to go..

TW: mentions suicide

I’m here because I don’t know where else to go - I can’t trust any of the psychologists/psychiatrists I’ve been seeing and I can’t talk to my partner about anything as it’s too much for him to handle. I don’t feel like I should post/haven’t posted before because I feel like they’re watching/monitoring me and they’ll know if I say anything online, but I’m not in a good place and I need advice.

I’ve had multiple different diagnoses across the past few years and was hospitalised for 5 weeks last year after a suicide attempt and they wouldn’t let me leave but they also wouldn’t help me at the same time. I’ve struggled a lot with voices and hallucinations over the years, and also suffered a fair bit of trauma in my youth. I’m on ap meds but they do nothing when I’m having an episode and I’m so sick and tired of psychiatrists telling me I’m not actually hallucinating or hearing voices and psychologists dismissing my experiences. Between being told I need to see them multiple times a week to I shouldn’t be seeing them for a while and I need a break from mental health services, I don’t know what to do. Not one of them is listening to a word I say but I knew this was going to happen - it always has because they’re all the same and part of the same bs and I can’t talk to any of them

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I hear a lot of voices, constantly, and the ones that tell me I need to end my life are back and they won’t stop. I’m far more stable than I was a couple months ago when I was completely unable to do anything for weeks but it feels like everytime this happens it gets worse and worse. I was seeing new psychologists/psychiatrists but they made things 100x worse and I’m supposed to see my old psychiatrist from when I was hospitalised next week but I don’t even know what the point is.

It’s not like they can or will help me. I don’t know what I’m supposed to want from them now or what they can do for me. Everything feels wrong. I shouldn’t be here and I don’t know what to do. I can barely convince myself to push the post button because part of me knows they’re going to know

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rav3nSenior Contributor23 Oct 2025, 5:11 pm AEDT

Re: Don’t know where else to go..

hey @SleeplessRaven i wanted to pop in and see how you're travelling 😊

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SleeplessRavenSenior Contributor23 Oct 2025, 5:28 pm AEDT

Re: Don’t know where else to go..

Hi @rav3n thanks for checking in, I appreciate it. I actually just put a post in the hearing voices thread you recommended - I hope it was sort of what the thread was intended for.

I saw my old psychiatrist and she’s increased the meds I’m on - I feel like they’re helping a bit but also I’m not sure what they’re actually supposed to be doing because I’m still hearing voices that are feeding me delusional ideas which logically I understand they’re delusions to the outside world but I believe them without hesitancy and I know they’re real. The duality of it is confusing and exhausting but when I tell anyone they assume I just mean an overwhelming anxiety loop and tell me to do breathing exercises and meditate etc.

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rav3nSenior Contributor24 Oct 2025, 2:08 pm AEDT

Re: Don’t know where else to go..

appreciate you taking that leap and sharing on that thread. looks like there's a few others who have connected with you there too! @SleeplessRaven

i can see why you'd feel concerned. i think some have mentioned on the other thread how medications can be helpful at perhaps quietening the voices, but often time, therapeutic work may also need to be done along side it. breathing and grounding tools can be great for immediate/short term relief, but it doesn't necessarily address the thoughts or delusions.

i think you mentioned not trusting the current one, so i'm wondering if looking into a new psych (who specialises in hearing voices) would be possible? i reckon working through those thoughts would be helpful - and hopefully a new psych would be more validating too.

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