A song that describes your current emotional state TW

https://youtu.be/pCCoKosqchM?list=RDpCCoKosqchM

@REDLINEZ750 wanted me to post this song by Tracy Chapman but I couldn't find her singing it, so you have Toni Childs instead

@Bunniekins @creative_writer @Cuddlebear @MissGremlin @StuF @Jynx @Shaz51 @Thyme and everyone else who's on

@heartathome looking forward to listening to it.xx

@heartathome Thank you lovely. Songs really do bring out our feelings and I resonate with this one too. How are you doing? I’ve been thinking of you.

Hello @Cuddlebear Thanks for thinking of me. I'm okay.

I was sitting in church this morning very emotional and anxious. I had to go out the back for a while to figure out what was going on, then realised that I haven't taken my anti-depressants and mood stabilisers for a few days! That'll do it! :face_with_rolling_eyes:

I'm just sitting here listening to a mixture of sad music because I'm feeling sad and I want to! Savage Gardens at the moment. I'm having a pity party! 🎉 😁 I need to let the tears flow. 🥹 I'm anxious about Christmas and will be glad that SANE won't shut down! Otherwise, I would be on my own.

How are you doing? 💛

@heartathome Oh my lovely that’s hard feeling emotional and anxious in Church. Yes forgetting your meds will make you feel unwell quite quickly. I’m hoping you can take them today. They will help you feel better and usually quickly too.

I like savage garden too. I saw them in concert many years ago. It’s ok to be emotional and cry. It can help get feelings out and help our bodies and mind feel better. It’s not a pity party. It’s so hard living with mental illness and difficult especially at this time of year.

im glad SANE will be open too because like you I’m really going to need it so we both won’t be alone. We will have our forum friends.

Im feeling depressed and anxious. Lots of feelings of being unloved and discarded. 😞

Yeah. I took my meds as soon as I got home @Cuddlebear . How was the Savage Garden concert? You are right, difficult especially at this time of year. I should be used to tears by now, hey? I don't mind crying if I'm by myself or feel really safe with someone.

Depression and anxiety suck!! I'm sorry that you're feeling unloved and discarded! I know that you are loved and respected by your SANE family!

I don't like how unloving we can speak to ourselves. I have the same problem. I think most people do but can cover it up with a mask. The 'voices' are never kind unless we make a deliberate effort to say something nice to ourselves. That's been my experience anyway. When's your next drop in tapering? After Christmas, I hope!

I'm here for you Cuddlebear 💛

@heartathome The Savage Garden concert was very good. It was many many years ago when they were very popular.

The tears from strong emotions and trauma have not been something I have gotten used to. I wish I was there so I could wipe them away and listen to your story and offer comfort. It feels safer when we cry with someone we trust or when alone. But it’s nice to have someone we trust and I’m here and can see the pain you are feeling my friend.

I agree we can get into a pattern of speaking poorly to ourselves and in ways we wouldn’t to people we love and care about. Like if someone I loved said they are worthless I’d reassure them that they’re not worthless and very valuable and loved and explain why. People say our thoughts are just that thoughts but when you feel unloved etc it still hurts. It doesn’t matter that it’s not true it just hurts. Yes many people mask those thoughts I think it’s a way of coping for people. I used to mask it too but now I’m at a place where I can’t do it.

I will not be tapering till sometime next year. My GP was not impressed and wanted it “all done by Xmas”. My body and mind can’t handle it. It’s brutal and I’m literally mostly alone in the F2F world. I’m still not well but GP gets upset that I can’t do it. He’s not the one that has to live like this and he’s not around to provide support so he really needs to be a lot more understanding. He’s made me feel worse.

Thank you for being here. I’m here for you too.

Thank you or caring @Cuddlebear . I appreciate your post!

I've felt alone most of my life even though I know I'm not. It doesn’t matter that it’s not true it just hurts. I totally agree. We feel what we feel!

I'm glad you're not tapering till next year. Good for you for putting your foot down. I presume it was you that said no. 💛

I am afew days behind in ready, apologies.

@heartathome hope you are feeling a little less sad soon. Sometimes having a cry to let things out makes me feel better after 😊🥰.

@MissGremlin wow, very unfair of them. Guess that person showed their "true colours". Also odd that they think scammers appear as nice people (and all nice people are scammers?). Sad reflection of their personal experiences i guess. My experience is that scammers start friendly and quickly become pushy and manipulative when you don't agree with them or question them.

@Cuddlebear *hugs*. I wish you did have more f2f support from family & friends, to also help reduce the feelings of alonement and abandonment. I will be here for you. I care. I love you as a friend, even though we only know each other from here. Sometimes i think people get to know each other more because we dont have to worry as much about what we say when we feel safe and online. 🥰

I am so so so proud of you for standing firm for what you needed and felt was right for you (re: tapering). I hope now that you are staying on this dosage a little longer that you will start to feel a little more stable each week, and that over the weeks the new meds will also start to kick in to help too. Gosh i imagine that would have been so hard to stay firm with your GP on what you needed, but you advocated for yourself 😍.

How does it feel knowing you have successfully advocated for your needs in tapering?

What would you say to me if it was me who had just done that with a GP who was trying to manipulate me? (Cos you know... right back at ya! 😉🥰😍😊)

@AlwaysMyself Hello lovely how are you? how is work? Are you doing ok?

I agree people can get to know each other really well online and form real friendships. I love you as a friend too. I really do care about you and want you to be happy and enjoy life. I’ve been very fortunate to meet you here and get to know you.

Yes I said no more for now to GP until I’m more stable. I was scared going in but I’m glad I had the guts to do that. He now will see me once a fortnight he said. I just want to stabilise I desperately need to not feel the way I’m feeling. It will take time. I really appreciate and thank you for all your support.