Feeling lost

I am a lost person, I have had Depression / Anxiety for 20+ years, to now being told I have Bipola 2, I'm trying to get my head around that.

For years I have managed with others help and been very productive in life. But right now I am going through a tough time.

My mood is fluctuating on a daily basis, from depression to manic and the anxiety sometimes prevents me from leaving the house, let alone being in social situations. Confusion is the pits, my family tell me that they have to repeat themselves becouse I don't hear or understand what they are telling me ( I feel stupid ). I try hard to consentrate, but I can become easily distracted so I have a number of tasks going at once and that is frustrating.

Anxiety, Isolation and borderline social phobia at the moment have provented me from maintaining relationships; using public transport, going to the shops and appointments on my own, even driving some days.

I feel lost as to how to get past this time in my life, from crying over nothing to being irritable with myself or others. I think I am doing the right things for me, like trying to keep a routine, take all my medication ( when I don't forget ) and seeing a team of people who try to help.

But I still feel I need something else, what that is I have no clue.