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For everyone: I first started seeing my psychiatrist in 1998. I wrote this poem about him and therapy twenty-five years ago. As you can see, I didn't trust him at the beginning. I know now that he did and doe's care. I hope someone can relate and it's not too negative for here!

@REDLINEZ750 Here's another one. Are you okay? I'm being brave by putting it up!

Therapist

Do you laugh behind my back?

I doubt that you care less

How do you look upon my life?

Pathetic, I would guess

Did you ever give a thought

until I walk on through?

Or am I just another one

waiting patiently in queue?

You hide behind your doctor's mask

I know that's it's not you

I wonder what you're really like

Is what I see all true?

I want to trust and believe in you

But I can't believe you care

You keep your distance emotionally

and personally, never share

I am depressed and miserable

I feel unstable too

Are you glad when time is up

I wish I really knew

I'm so angry, I've no control

You won't open up to me

You have the power, I'm vulnerable

I hate the pain, you see

I sit with this every week

and I'm still compelled to come

My need for love is crushing me

I'm here for just a crumb

Does my pain amuse you so?

Is that behind your smile?

I want control that you won't give

I need to feel worthwhile

I have failed in my eyes

and it brings up all the past

Not wanted and unlovable

It's the role I have been cast

I love and hate you passionately

You hold some king of spell

Damn you for your ethics, [named removed by moderator]

But thank you too, as well

I'm feeling now, you wanted that

Though I can't say I'm impressed

I have to trust what you want

Is to see me at my best!

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I guess I connected to the land by a few good memories as a kid. @heartathome I didn’t grow up with a garden but love gardening now

I liked being reminded of the 70s and 80s

i gave birth to 2 kids, but raised 3. I guess I didn’t know how to do normal families

we have 2 girl cats

one is sitting with me on my bed at the moment

I am 65 a live in Victoria

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sounds like a good spot to cool off @heartathome,

expressing how your feeling is not having a whinge.not amongst the folk i speak to most days,

i read @AlwaysMyself i think posted to be kinder to yourself and i concure!

last full moon or one before i stumbled across an eclipse going outside for a smoke but already taken meds & had to sleep before it done full cycle, saw it half way at least.

enjoying a coffeee and chat is great way to get familiar with some forumites and hopefully provide support and soften your loss of the hub , it certainly helps me on noisy days to know your not judged by the sane community , understanding and support is genuine which i know takes your own time to figure out 😊

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Thanks @Appleblossom. I'm a 61 model with one boy who's in his thirty's now! I like to listen to my 60's, 70 and 80's music while I play sudoku on my laptop. Having a cat on the bed sounds lovely! I haven't got any animals at the moment but am getting closer to getting a rescue cat. I've got the scratching pole, kitty litter tray and food bowl from the local Opp shop. It's becoming more of a priority these days. I think a small animal will be good for my mental health. A second chance for them as well! 💚

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Yeah @REDLINEZ750 My negative voices were having a go, and I was going down a spiral. I'm okay now. Just a sad moment. Thanks for being there! Your support and encouragement are noted! 🙃

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Ours were rescue cats. Litter sisters @heartathome we got them in January. Yep, it costs to get set up, including vet etc.

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hey @heartathome i just saw your post now


@heartathome wrote:

@REDLINEZ750 @rav3n Do you think I should have a thread for my poems or just put them up anywhere, remembering that they're very raw. I liked the Christian chat. Do we want to go back to that, to post the poems about God or start a new discussion? That would probably be easier. I have a lot of poems about God. I'd like to post 'Inner Child' next, but I don't know where to put it. It's about finding my inner child. I like a sunset, but my OCD doesn't like lots of different colours or being too 'busy'. Talk later.


you are welcome to start your own thread or post in christian chat/other threads. if you prefer having everything in on place, maybe starting a new thread would be easier. but if you prefer sharing it with other spaces based on the poem theme, that works too! completely up to you 💙

also hi @heartathome @REDLINEZ750!! it's lovely seeing you both around 💙

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Thanks @rav3n If I start a New Discussion, will it keep me on the same thread. Is this what I'm supposed to be doing. I always think it's rude to interrupt a conversation or do I just use the Reply button to say something that's not related to the previous post? I don't know. 🤔

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hey @heartathome @REDLINEZ750 i was away the last few days so i'm catching up on my tagged notifications now - apologies for the delay!

about posting - if us mods notice a post doesn't meet our guidelines, we'll reach out to you and let you know (usually within the hour). you won't be in any trouble at all, we're here to make edits and guide you with posting so pls don't stress 😊

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@heartathome wrote:

Thanks @rav3n If I start a New Discussion, will it keep me on the same thread. Is this what I'm supposed to be doing. I always think it's rude to interrupt a conversation or do I just use the Reply button to say something that's not related to the previous post? I don't know. 🤔


it's not rude at all to jump into convos here, that's how our forums work! the next post doesn't always have to be relevant to the previous one 😊 as long as you're tagging the person you are replying to, it'll make sense.

so if you want to stay in the same thread but share a new topic of discussion, you are welcome to do that any time @heartathome it won't be rude at all. really appreciate your kindness in asking!

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hey @heartathome 😁

feels like ages been round these parts

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