Sad and anxious my brother might not want me in his life any more

What I think I need from the forum is validation, acknowledgement and stories of how others have coped with similar experiences.

My brother who I love dearly has refused to speak to me for over a year. There was a misunderstanding of perception on his part, and he has refused communication. It's been heart breaking because my intentions were pure and if he just took my phone call and let me explain, it would all be fixed.

A neutral 3rd person is asking him today or tomorrow whether he ever wants me in his life again. I'm sitting here so anxious and sad. I'm trying to distract myself the best I can. Trying to tell myself "it's not personal it's his misperception." But that isn't helping the crushing feeling of sadness.

I'm confused because there has been moments where we were meant to see each other face to face with other people around, but then he says he isn't coming.

This has been the worst year of my life and my heart and soul feel broken.