@DownMoreThanUp geese are cool,when was 6years oldish my granddad had a couple on farm, they taught me how fast i could run when scared and its a respect that stayed for life 😁
Thet are also the best alert animals if something or someone lurks near by they will wake you
@Chasingsunsets @Bunniekins @ENKELI @PeppiPatty
safe to say my highlights been reached, its being able to recognise the sadness from yesterday was still over me, just not yet consuming leaving wiggle room wise mind where DBT is found.
Radically Accepting individual needs for recovery and well being is not what matters in a public system that offers support, the psychologist i had genuinely saw me and cared i believe despite it being pointless in a system that allocates funding for x amount of sessions then your done.
thankyou for participating, bye.
close the file add it to the number of people thier services help create a wonderful statiscal number to brag about justifying more funding. i dont mean to rubbish it i think its very important and could be just the thing if the complexity of struggles can be rectified in 8hrs of therapy.
i also acknowledge its a wide spectrum to cover and the best intentions are there if not felt when being reduced to a manuilla folder.
so radical acceptance became self compassion, im allowed to feel sad. it is sad. i am not weak to feel sad however ispiralling from rumenation letting it accumulate everything else i can feel sad about till i cant move from its weight should not be allowed even though it was making so much noise in the background trying to be heard i focused on the weather outside and somehow wise mind said try.
i tried and had no physical reaction today i was out the front and then i was under the house and then i was behind the mower.
no hypervigilance no focusing on everything that moved just mowing the lawn OUT THEB FRONT! on a weekend! (if i thought that at time i would of retreated i got anxiety now about it) and it was beautiful shirt off sun on body and achieved gradual exposure, mowed the lawn was productive and it will be another too long post to explain how big a thing that is for me to that.
feeling proud of myself despite the hieghtened senses now sharing is a highlight sadness just a sulky grumbling in the background currently 😊
