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@AuntGlow Morning. My old bsb will work for now. I don’t have to change payments right now but I am anxious about the upcoming process. I am worried I will miss a payment. I’m not sure how long I will have to do the change over. I am trying to compile a list of the payments but am feeling overwhelmed. I really struggle to read small numbers and letters even with my reading glasses on. I have cataracts developing. I managed to shower and walk to shop this morning. My back hurt walking and I struggled to walk because I smoke unfortunately. I am physically unfit. I’m worried about my lungs but can’t give up the smokes. Have tried to stop multiple times. GP is on leave atm. Too anxious to drive safely. I literally shake.

I sought the haven of my bed @PeppyPatti . Had trouble getting to sleep and slept in 15 mins. Morning btw. Managed to shower and walk to shop. Horribly unfit. Have a good day. Are you swimming again?

Good luck with consumer affairs and your solar panels @SmilingGecko . I walked to the shops this morning after showering. My back hurt like it always does when I have a MI episode. Struggled to get there and back because I’m so unfit. Have to call my psychiatrist to try to get an appt.

I know youre struggling @GezzaP I was diagnosed years ago as having schizoaffective disorder which is both schizophrenia and bipolar. I used to have extreme mood swings.

I read magnesium oil can resolve episodes quickly and I can say it was true for me. Like you, could not take antidepressants either without going high same with St Johns Wort - it happens with mood disorders. Some people react favorably to magnesium oil i've had lots of success with it. You cant overdo it - the body only absorbs what it needs so you dont need to worry about dosage.

You apply it to your skin and it gets absorbed into your bloodstream. Have read articles on how its good for bipolar but have also read on AI some people were contraindicated. But for me its saved myself from countless suffering.

It wont cure you but it did help me to manage my symptoms. It would lift me out of deep depression and curtail the dizzying highs of a manic episode. I keep it as part of my medicine toolkit!!

The oil I use is Ancient Minerals - its the best on the market and is lab tested for heavy metals. I prefer it to other brands as it works really well. Its so much better to be able to resolve it quickly instead of having to put up with horrible symptoms.

@SmilingGecko hey SG, kicking up strength to cope. Thanks for prayersm

Smile @GezzaP 😃think of something positive.I would feel like you do if negative self talk

Try and take it easy, few less 'I cants' maybe. Just makes things worse. You got tv fixed. You walked to shops. I wo t be doing that..

What about a book? Cup of tea 🍵? Think of something that made you happy? Moving slowly here. Feels warm. longsleeves off soon Cat asleep in bedroom.not seen him much last few days. Guess he's catching up on sleep 😴💤:face_with_rolling_eyes:🙃

My GP is away @TAB . Made a phone appt with psychiatrist for today. Can’t drive safely when this anxious. I literally shake if I drive. I know hopeless.

Yes things had got so far out control re mass @SmilingGecko

I take magnesium tablets @SmilingGecko . Recommended by my GP. Also take Vitamin D also recommended by my GP. I am so low I fear I need to go into hospital for ect but the problem is I have the bank issue to sort out and my puss to feed. Wish I could have outpatient ect, but not sure I can because I think I have COPD from smoking. And my GP is away atm.

Make the best of it then guess @GezzaP distractions? Can't keep eyes open texting need quick nap