When i was unable to work i forced myself to do so anyhow, and made a mess of my life doing so, for there was so much healing necessary in my heart, and that is where Jesus wanted me to be.The work ethic is strong in almost every Christian, however often wrongly focused. Yet Jesus will bring you peace at the right answer, while satan, that ugly accuser speaking with a double tongue as if he cared about doing it right, he accuses us with wrong heeding Jesus!
Yet honest my friend to explore my inner world of being with Jesus is the best thing i have ever done. For in Him i find myself Alive in God's Word, especially as is written in the book of Revelation.
The book read spiritually is the most awesome journey i have everbeen on. And i know i will NEVER stop traveling with Jesus through its truths.
For i now know that Jesus has immortality laying ready for EVERYONE who loves Him/truth/good things, and dares to trust Him/The truth as The Living Word, inside their heart.
i wrote a poem about that time in my life
Twice Blinded
What destroyer, where would he be?
The deadly snake bite I didn't see!
Still part of myself was dragged away,
held captive there by wicked sway,
all the lies sown in my soul,
day by day taking control,
feeding my life lies and misery,
my good times became history.
Bringing thoughts and feelings around,
which are in no way sound,
rather inner kings cruel and strong,
those worldly ways so very wrong,
raising Babylon in all her might,
holding me captive in my fright,
denying grace to rule my ways,
mocking God in His face.
Horse hooves trampling my soul,
grass-hoppers devouring all,
scorpion stings stinging,
famine upon famine bringing,
brimstone burn everything to ash,
massive hailstones me to smash,
the darkness ever growing close,
for the goats got me by the nose.
So working for another's bread,
God's loving truth I forget,
thinking my world would always stink,
driving my good life to the brink,
yet there at the bottom of my might,
I finally began to see the light..,
..Jesus, whom I bring so much grief,
when I have that liar as my chief!
And so The Truth did shine on me!
His Spirit alive in my heart to see!
Oh what blinding light I saw there?
God's goodness displayed everywhere!
His love washing me white as snow!
His loving truth inside my life to flow!
Oh Lamb of God forever to be praised!
For from the dead I have been raised!
This is what i know the journey through the book of Revelation is all about. The destruction of a carnal mind, and the resurrection of lost good life.
i will love Jesus forever teaching me to understand His Word, just as He in the word promised believers He would.(John 14:15-23.)
This song tells it all
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Dzx9uNU0JY&list=RD-Dzx9uNU0JY&start_radio=1
