Im Not Good Enough

I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this @LostAngel, heartbreak is awful.

I'm hearing that you're shouldering a lot of the responsibility for why this relationship has broken down, but it does take 2 people to end a relationship. I don't think I've heard of any breakup where it is completely one person's doing.

Again, I'm sorry you're going through this right now. We're here for you

You are good enough, you are brilliant , you are smart, you can do anything

I’m so sorry @LostAngel you’re going through this. Please remember, it takes two people to make a relationship work, so this is not all on you. The right person will talk, listen, and work through differences, not walk away in silence

You are worthy of love, just as you are. One person’s actions don’t define your value. Focus on your own worth and let the right one find you, they’ll see and love you for exactly who you are.

We’re here for you.

Well We Ended Up Talking Again and things are messy at the moment Because well We Started argueing Again and Hes saying how I always complain ect anyway things are messy ,Mind you I am To Blame Too Because I got really distant from him after we argued on the Phone Again, so Yesterday I barely talked to him and jsut completely decided to shut down ,barely talked to him cause hes kind of over my negativity mind you he does have some reason to be upset over that as I would say in this relationship I become somewhat clingy with him and sometimes a bit emotionally obsessed over to much to the point of calling him so much till he answers when I dont here from him for a length of time,anxiety about unread messages ect , I dont know could it be where both gaslighting eachother in this situation , like its now at a stage where Im left steering the wheel so to speak because well anyway we had a better phone call tonight and I tried to sound as positive and cheerful as I could at first even though Ive been more or barely acknowleding him for a day or so and well then after surpressing my negative side or as he calls it my stuborness I decided to be honest that hey the reason why Ive ignored his phonecalls was because I was spending the day Crying over this relationship anyway we had some heart to heart words and he apologized which I believe is a genuine apology , and look I do tend to overly call him sometimes when hes working endless hours in at his hospitality Job but anyway moving on I guess Now I find myself stuck in a cycle of indecision not of if we should meet but how do we meet ,He lives in a different country ,and we keep having this back and forth scenario of discussing sometimes heatedly how we would make things work like wether He travels here or I taraveled there and though Ive assured him Many times that I wanna meet Ive tried to make it quite Obvious that we need to meet in my country rather than his country but the round about still keeps going and we both seem to be stuck in indecion but me moreso cause I am A woman and dont feel comftable travelling alone to another country ,Id feel much safer if he travelled here but back and forth we go cause he wants for me to to his country and hes like saying that If Im not able to get his visa to come here or Im not Comftable To Go there then how are we to meet anyway I know full well to think Of My Safety first and foremost ,at the same time however Im feeling like either where both gas ligting eachother or am I prehaps leading him on cause I cant take the action of travelling to his country ,mind you he is happy to travel here weve had issue with the visa situation ect I dont know part of me wories Im Leading him on But In The same token I must think of safety and cant just jet off to another country cause obviously anything could happen cause after all you dont fully know someone unless you meet them so I dont know its like walking a tight rope

Hey @LostAngel hearing how confusing and exhausting it must be walking this tightrope as you described.

Its good that you've been able to have this talk and you were able to receive a sincere apology, but I understand that it's still such a difficult situation with you living in separate countries. I do think that it's important for you to consider your safety here, and it's good that you've been firm with that. Ultimately, while I can understand that he wants you to come to him due to his visa issues, you shouldn't be put in a situation where you don't feel safe.

Exactly True @Ru-bee