greatescapeNew Contributor
Self talk around eating/weight
I've had issues around eating/weight in the past but it's always been related to my physical health conditions.
But lately (2-3 months or so) something has changed, I think triggered by a quick weight loss after an infection.
I've become preoccupied with my weight, weighing myself multiple times a day and even documenting it.
I've started actively restricting what I eat [edited by moderator].
It's not to do with how I look, it's all about the numbers, likely to do with my OCD.
But what's concerning me most is the self-talk and self-hate/guilt, that's completely new. Every time I eat my mind tells me "fat bi**h" "you're a pig" "stupid" "how dare you" etc, same with if the number on the scale goes up even 0.1kg.
This is all new for me, I know it's a problem. I just don't know how to stop it, I know I need to address it especially while it's early and still a new thing.
- I just don't know what to do. I've tried telling my psychologist, my dietitian, and my case manager.. but I can't. I'm ashamed of it. I have many other MH problems, it's almost embarrassing that I might be facing another one.