@Autumn-leaves How are you? I too have complex PTSD. For me having to re-tell trauma to doctors, psychologists etc does affect me and triggers symptoms of the complex PTSD. Like I do understand that we have to go over what is causing complex PTSD but unfortunately this also triggers symptoms for a lot of people.
Complex PTSD can feel like I’m losing it but I’ve had since a child and I’ve never lost it so to speak. I feel very vulnerable too.
For me it takes time to build a professional relationship where I feel safe. Thing is though unless you can afford on going psychology you don’t get to spend the time you need to really recover so things go round in circles. A safe space helps me a lot to be honest. It also allows the treating specialist to get to know me deeper and to be able to help me recover and provide suggestions that are more likely to suit me.
You’re not alone in how you are feeling. There’s people here who can understand and provide peer support.