Hurt in the past

When I went to college I didn’t fit in and I broke down. I had a short psychosis when I went home. My family looked after me and I slowly got better over the next six months. I went to uni for a while and there was this great course called spirituality and rites of passage. I quit uni and had a spiritual experience. My heart was whispered open and I had a connection to everyone in the universe. I felt a deep sense of peace and love. My family thought I was unwell and put me in hospital. They wanted to medicate me. They didn’t want to know about my spiritual experience. I had a dystonic reaction to the medication. They moved me out of that hospital into another. That made me a bit unwell. Then they put me on yellow pills, I had another dystonic reaction but this time they made me take it for two months. I literally could not lift my head without a neck brace. They wouldn’t let me see a neurologist until my father insisted. The neurologist said take her off that. I feel that the dr was negligent. I am deeply traumatised by this experience.