tymeModerator
Morning Check-In
Hey everyone, it seems some of the posts are 'disappearing' from the other Morning Check-In thread so I'm just creating another one and hope to move some posts over here.
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Morning Check-In
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avant-gardeSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
@MissGremlin
Content/trigger warning
I actually want to tell him
My psych thinks it will help
The current, recent trigger
That is making church worse
This is the longest church I've been in
Coming on six years
That shift, that milestone
Was something that I feared
You see, the one before this
The church that held the title
Ended in the worst way
They gave me to my abusers
I was scared, alone and hurt
Altered state of consciousness
Upwards of three hours
With people who wouldn't see
I tried to tell my friend
But she didn't believe me
It can't have been possible
So I tried again
Still they didn't listen
So I stopped trying them
I asked someone else
Who I thought was my friend
He crossed every boundary
Forced his way inside
Then I had a seizure
He raped [removed] that night
That I conceived a child
The doctor had me do a test
My dad though, he raped and beat [removed]
That soon the child was dead
I blame the church that failed me
Their actions got me raped
Their intentions got me pregnant
When I was twenty-eight
So now this church beats them
I've been here longer
It's brought up all this fear
That I'll lose this church too
... I just wrote and shared this with my elder...
@moderator
This is getting frustrating.
My posts keep ending up in "items for editing" and the last two times I haven't been told why
Please explain.
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MissGremlinSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
@avant-garde oh sweetheart, I'm sorry you had those experiences at the last church, it's absolutely horrific what you've been through. I'm glad you felt comfortable to share this with your elder. I really hope you don't lose this church but I know those triggers are incredibly hard.
Sitting with you sweet and sending you hugs ❤️
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wonderingalice1Moderator
Re: Morning Check-in
hi @avant-garde,
Thank you for following this up, I acknowledge how frustrating this must be, that posts are being marked as 'items for editing' and you are still awaiting a response from our forums team . I'm really sorry for this-we aim to be consistent and meet those expectations such as timely communication.
Just to update you-i'm getting support with the forums team to look into this issue and to find why this has happened, we will email you today to let you the outcome. I'm really sorry again-i really appreciate your patience with this.
Thank you
Wonderingalice1
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avant-gardeSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
@MissGremlin
So I met my replacement case manager today...
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MissGremlinSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
Hello @avant-garde my sweet.
How did it go meeting them?
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avant-gardeSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
@MissGremlin
She called me out of the blue
Told me that she would find me a cleaner
Told me that I would pay for it
Told me I was on an exit plan now
I repeated three times "I can't afford a cleaner"
She kept saying "I'll find you a cleaner"
Asked no questions about me
Made no effort to build rapport
Then finished the call in tears
I don't like her
She didn't listen
She didn't try
I was a checkbox
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MissGremlinSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
@avant-garde oh sweetheart, this sounds really tough, her approach sounds rather abrupt and blunt. I'm so sorry that you've had this experience with her.
What are your options with getting another case manager?
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avant-gardeSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
@MissGremlin
It's only for another 6 months
I have no chance of getting someone different, it's not how they do things.
I'll ignore her calls and just meet the required once a month.
I don't technically need them anymore now that I'm through my first inspection
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MissGremlinSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
@avant-garde i hear you sweet.
I'm hoping the next 6 months go really fast for you.
How are you feeling now?
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avant-gardeSenior Contributor
Re: Morning Check-in
@MissGremlin
Well at least I replied, strongly implying "I don't need you"
Her first impression was atrocious and I feel more alone as a result.
Like I'm not worth getting to know.
