Mental Health Carer Support

Thank you @AuntGlow

Appreciate the time you have given to respond to me. By calling the CAT team, the result is the public system. What are your concerns about the public system?

Im also studying the crap out of psychosis this last 6 days. There are no trauma related issues, which I continue to be asked. I mean, there could be, but my partner and I have shared some pretty deep stuff, I am just racing my own brain here wondering what’s happened, what went wrong?

im also interested to know what you mean by spirituality? We are not spiritual people BUT this is her 2nd episode of her life. Last year we were in a 3rd world country when her first episode occurred. Must say, the public system was crap during that time. A few meds and finish them up if you like, basically.

fast forward to now… we’ve just returned from a different 3rd world country and this psychosis hit just after returning home from that holiday. Is this something culture related perhaps? As I said, just trying to work it all out and try pin point what her triggers are

Please don't be hard on yourself. Psychosis is the meanest and most unbearable situation of life. It is a lonely time where all you want is to side with their reality, for them. Everyone tells them what they think isn't real. And everyone tells you not to side with them. Instead of addressing underlying trauma, councilling sessions are aimed at telling them their thoughts are wrong. It feels like you and your loved one against the whole world.

In emergency, I was told to consider how I would feel if I didn't admit my daughter and we walked away and the worst happened? Realising she had no choice, she admitted herself voluntarily. I know the setting of mental health wards is distressing. I feel your pain, anguish and trauma through every cell of my body, but it will keep them safe for the timebeing.

As soon as you can, please arm you and your partner with trauma councelling. I wish I had done that. I pushed for my daughter through my limited lens of life. I wish I had known she had relapsed. I wish I had been given the right advice by Community Mental Health when she had come off her medications for 2 whole weeks. I wish I had realised how fragile she had again become when she relapsed. I wish I could have been the mother she deserved. After my daughter took her life, I realise wishes just don't come true.

Arm yourself. Learn about relapse. When you tire, reach for help. Trust yourself and walk away from those who don't help. Find supportive people, groups like these forums. Ask questions. Don't let people be dismissive about your concerns. Trust yourself.