8KZTL7Contributor
Broken
Broken.
My partner of almost 10 years has just decided to pull the plug. Feeling lost, alone, broken, confused and torn, cant stop crying . He says it's him and the family trauma he has dealt with for most of his life. But also says that he feels as though he cant speak to me im too much, too sensitive, i take things personally. That he is in a dark place but doesn't want help. The sad thing is I have been in a dark place before many of times and am it still here. Just so confused, by it all as he appears to be so happy and friendly to everyone except me? I feel I am being pushed away and punished! He says it's family but has not expressed how he is feeling to them or anyone else for that matter. To make matters worse, just last week, it was all i love you, etc, to this.
Everything seems to be falling apart, not just from that its just one of many things that seems to be going wrong at the moment.
I have to move back to my parents but they don't seem too supportive just pushing me to have my own place, however I can not financially do that because everything was my ex and I even to the furniture, my job is also on the line due to cuts being made at the company.
I have signed up to part take in this course which my first call is Monday. I have also signed up to another course to keep me on the straight.
I am feeling so alone, worthless, not good enough.
Sorry to put this out just need somewhere to write I know we are all going through something.
