Psychosis Mum

Hey @Mmlmm, thanks for sharing your experiences with the community!

Sounds like you are going through a really tough time at the moment, after psychosis and dealing with the effects afterwards. It takes courage to come to the Forums and share your story with the community, being vulnerable and talking about your challenges.

I am not a mother, but I can relate to your experience as I am diagnosed with schizophrenia and have had many psychotic episodes. The impact that my episodes had and dealing with things afterwards was devastating for me. I have since found a pathway to recovery and leading a meaningful and purposeful life that I could not have dreamed of only a few years ago.

I'm curious what supports do you have around you? I'm so glad that you have found the Forums and we have other supports here at SANE that you might benefit from taking a look.

Hello @Mmlmm I'm so glad to hear you've come through that experience and out the other side but I agree the loss of identity and self-esteem is huge. And you grieve for your lost self and lost relationships.

I'm not a mum. But jI survived a long working life punctuated by occasional relapses and times where my illness caused me to behave inappropriately and/or sabotage my work efforts, impacting colleagues. The embarrassment was extreme. But I persevered, and returned and/or rebuilt where I was able.

There are many mums in the forums community and I hope some see your post and reassure you and support you.

Thankyou for sharing your experience with us.

With my children I feel that it is good to give them the understanding that mental health is like any other illness and there should be no need for embarassment. It is important to remove the stigma that is attached to behaviours which are beyond our control.

It can be very challenging to accept that we can't always protect the 'hidden' facets of our mind from public view but these aspects of ourselves exist for a reason.

For myself, I draw strength and resilience from knowing that I don't always know what is best for me so I must accept that what happens, does so out of necessity and that I am part of the positive change in society's understanding.

Accept the gift, it's a positive change which will benefit our children to be more empathetic adults. 💖

I relate completely but my vice was addiction. It Took away my marriage, children and everything and anyone good in my life. I am currently trying to rebuild my life but I am doing it alone and I don’t know what to do on my own. I really have no one. And I’ve always had SOMEONE. I don’t know how to even put myself first in anything. I am scared of where I’ll end up if I don’t find out soon.
So yeah I can relate it really sucks hey?

Hey @pieanne13 ,

Welcome to the forums.

Thank you for sharing parts of your story.

I hope you'll find the connection and belonging you deserve, here on the forums.

Hi @Mmlmm I had psychosis for 15 years been medicated for the past five years since then people treat me differently so I don’t tell people so I am treated any different I have been trying. To meet people who have had experiences in the last five years to see if there are any similarities I have nether had a chance to speak to a another person who had psychosis

I'm interested to hear what you mean by people treating you differently after being medicated @Circlegame1 ?

Hi @tyme @people that know I had a psychosis treat me like I’m still crazy although all I did in psychosis was walk and was in a slight daze having trouble gathering thoughts still to this day I am treated like a crazy most people say it behind my back others come out and say it directly are you still crazy I reply I am on medication

I'm sorry to hear that @Circlegame1 . That's so hard.

How did you come to know you needed meds?

Hi @tyme @my psychosis was extremely painful I could no longer bare the pain so I stayed on medication