Beginning each day with optimism and ending each day feeling hopeless.

It’s been a few years of debilitating mental afflictions to the point that I don’t even recognise myself anymore. I am too ashamed to see friends and I just feel so mentally disorganised all of the time. Previously, I could focus all of my efforts to the task at hand whether it was study, work or another venture. Now, I hardly achieve anything and tend to self-sabotage without realising until after it has occurred. I feel extremely isolated. I don’t have anyone that I trust, any friends at the moment, and no supportive family. I sometimes see my partner but he doesn’t understand what it is like to suffer from mental health conditions so it is challenging for him to listen non-judgementally. I live alone and my home is freezing all the time. I can’t afford a better living situation. I keep living each day thinking when will I escape from this. My self-esteem is extremely low at the moment. I feel hopeless. I have seen a psychologist for a few sessions, but they are sparse and they have not been helping. I also spoke with a SANE counsellor but these sessions ended. I’m not sure where I can turn for help. I’ve tried to get better on my own but it has not been successful