I have accomplished nothing I have wanted to

Hi @Jadia

Thanks for sharing your experiences, and I really understand how hard it can be when society places so much emphasis on study, work, and accomplishments and it feels like we're not keeping up. It's really hard to unwire from those messages, but you're not a failure, and if you're open to it, could you be kind and compassionate to yourself, and recognise the factors outside your control that have affected to you now, and how you've been doing your best?

Anxiety is really debilitating, it's not just something you should be able to tell yourself to snap out of. That's just something that has been important in my recovery and overcoming self-judgment and criticism, which I'm still working on.

Re: the emotionally abusive relationship and the person's presence in your life, are there any positive social connections you could lean into? It doesn't erase things but I've found that helps me when feeling disillusioned with other people.

@Jadia hey i think in a positive light u have established boundaries for what u will settle for regarding ur future, job expectations, enjoyment on what u study, what standards u establish

the fear of failure is terrifying, and know that you're not weak because hardly anyone can overcome it. there often is little to no recognition for study, work and aforementioned achievements by society, i really hope u find reassurance from people in person that you're doin a fabulous job but in any case we're here for u ❤️

True @Jadia @moodyahhhhh , it's a place I've found myself in, in the past too... just LOST