Torn between my second husband n my son from my first husband.

After 5 years away from Sane,I'm back.

I will be 72 on Wednesday,June 4,2025.

I'm old n still getting hard time .

Last time I was here,it's my second husband im having hard time,now hes change a lot,after trying to leave him for good.

Now its my son.

He sent me flowers for Mother's day this year which im so happy n very grateful n feel loved.,n a few days after,he came back home.( he leave in Sydney now).I'm in Queensland.

to attend a big party for his friend.

I picked him up at the Airport,he seems happy we were talking about not seeing him ,he said exactly 15 months Mum.

I said I'm glad you came home.

He said I'm going to this big party tonight,I just answered saying.

I should have big party so you can come home n see me too.

He did not say anything.

I said are we going to have Brunch but he said I just had something big on the plane,so I guess he's not hungry.

Before he came he said he'll look forward to have Brunch with me.

So I guess he's not hungry,N he said he's got work online meeting at 11.

I said come over to my place n meet my new dog,before taking him.to his sister's place.

He asked me if my husband is there,i said hes at work.

I was driving so I took him home.

In the house,he seems uneasy,asked me where are his school photos,n all the things he gave me.

I told him I gave all the photos to his sister to keep,he seems getting more n more upset I asked if he want to have a drink or something to eat,but said no.

Later on he was talking on the phone outside the house,I was trying to tell him to come inside n he can talk whoever it was.

It's nearly 11 n he said his online work meeting will start soon so I gave him the car key n told him to go accros bthe road in the park (I was saying that so no one can distract him because my dog n my neighbours dog are both barking.

I also said He (my husband is coming soon)

He misinterpret it.he thought I'm trying to get rid of him.

He left and he never came back.

I message him and I said when is he coming to pick me up to have lunch,but he said sorry ill have to miss it n never say anything anymore.

The next message he sent me,he's on the plane to go back that same day he arrived.

I was crying so hard. I tried to call him but he never answer,

I got so angry at me.he misinterpret,everything I said that day.

When he get back to Sydney.

He message me,he said it seems you don't have a son,no photos of me ,all my school photos are gone,all the things I gave you.is gone.

I told him in have his photos and his sister's photos n all the things he gave me in my spare room.

I said I have my reasons why I don't put all of them on display in the lounge room where I used to put it.

(The true reason is my husband once stole n hid all my photos n souvenirs from them,that's why I don't put it on display anymore.)

I never tell my son whyI dont even tell him when I'm sick or having a fight with my husband.

Hes had depressions and anxiety so I don't want to burden him with anything specially he's too far away from me.

He hates my husband so much, n I cannot blame him,he'd seen him how he treated me badly.

He didn't know he is now changing how he treated me. He doesn't believe he will change at all.

My son never stayed with me when he visit,he stayed with my daughter his sister,or his friends.

And I'll have to say that my husband is too jealous of my son of us being so close.

He is always angry everytime he knew my son is coming home.

ITS LIKE IM TORN BETWEEN MY SON N MY HUSBAND.

How can I explain to my son that he misinterpret everything that day.

He doesn't want to listen anymore.now he is more distant .

I love my son so much,I even told my husband not to dare ask me who to choose between him n my son because he knew who I will choose.

I'm so torn and brocken.