Struggles with mental health

@rav3n I am searching for positives from the interview, and am hoping for some luck.

I think my interpersonal skills shone through rather than my technical capabilities.

yesss that's really good! @Lowrida29 i find that being self-aware of my strengths and weakness helps me use it my advantage, i hope you're able to use your interpersonal skills to your advantage too! i'm sure there'll be companies really value that.

@rav3n Agreed. Returning to application mode is tough after an interview since you are back to tailoring applications for similar or partially relevant roles.

Also, despite my experience, I believe I am not technically sound, and may struggle to code or write correct queries under pressure. Furthermore, it has become a norm at most companies, and has triggered my imposter syndrome.

hey @Lowrida29!

yeah it can be tough returning to application mode, it almost feels like a setback even though it's a sign of bouncing back in my opinion.

from what i've heard from my friend who works in IT, a lot of people come in with the bare minimum knowledge and grow during the roles. writing codes under pressure sounds overwhelming, i reckon i'd freeze up and find it tricky too! i have full faith that with the right opportunity/company, you'll grow more confident.

anyways, how are you going? still doing those early morning hikes?

sounds like you've been busy with those screening calls (and also good work!!) @Lowrida29

that makes sense, saving money is important too. i'm glad you've continued with hiking and you're still getting some movement throughout the day. hopefully you can jump back into bouldering and your usual workout once you enter the new role. still got my fingers crossed for you!

all the best for Monday's interview!!! @Lowrida29

Hi, @rav3n and @tyme,

I hope you two are well, safe and sound.

Maybe it's time I get a few things about the job search off my chest.

In a world of layoffs and loosening job markets, I wonder if I am going to develop my tech career in Australia or elsewhere. I wish I had known the signs of a bad domestic job market before resigning blindly in early June.

Furthermore, as I apply for jobs behind the scenes, my roommates and family have been rooting for me. On the contrary, reaching out to other friends in Sydney for hikes or chats continues to be a hurdle. Everytime I talk to fam in Melbourne, I curse myself for not being as outgoing as my other family members like my dad and sister.

hey @Lowrida29 glad you could get this off your chest here.

it's hard when we look back at a decision and feel like we should've done things differently. sounds like you made the best decision you could with the info you had at the time, and now you know for next time.

it's so lovely that your family is rooting for you, but i also get that having their love and support can sometimes feel like a pressure to make them proud. as long as you keep trying your best (which i know you are), you'll make them proud.

we all have our capacity and limits for being outgoing! i'm not as outgoing as my dad, sometimes i wish i was as confident and social as he is. but i know that i have my own strengths, and i'm sure you do too. your reservedness is not a weakness - a lot of reserved people are great observers, they're good with listening and understanding. but if you do want to be more outgoing, that's possible too!!