I lost all my supports

TW : Suicide

Im really sorry if this isnt the right place, ive never reached out like this before Im sorry. Im not really sure how to start this...but I feel like I’m falling apart and I don’t know where else to turn. About four months ago something happened in my life (I dont want to delve into this), but it shook me completely! Since then, I’ve been doing my best to get through it with the help of my NDIS supports (counselling/DBT focused therapy twice a week with my social worker, monthly OT, and regular meetups with my support worker). My supports are a lifeline i feel at the moment. Then all of a sudden two weeks ago my NDIS funding suddenly ran out. No warning. No backup plan. Everything just stopped! All i hear is silence. My OT text to say she would call to check in, that was last Friday and still no call. Beatrice my support worker has been cancelling quite a lot and also doesnt respond to my texts. Tne minute I had support, and the next I had nothing. I've heard nothing. Now I’m sitting with all this, yuck, and the suicidal thoughts are getting louder and more constant. I feel so alone and lonely. I'm scared and exhaustedAnd honestly, I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this on my own. I’m not even sure what I need right now I just needed to say it somewhere.

Has anyone else been through something like this? Losing supports when you need them most?

Thanks for reading/listening- Mel