Being denied comfort from significant other :/

I have a history of complicated and bad mental health and my boyfriend also has mental health issues. I’ve never asked him to look after me or to coddle me in any way but throughout the year and half we’ve been together (lived together for a year.) I’ve never never been honest about the in balance of support until tonight when I needed it most. All I wanted was a hug or some kind of comfort and instead I was met with irritation and when I tried to leave the room I was reprimanded. I was then forced to explain that I didn’t want to fill the void of sound in the room with my crying and he still didn’t care I was once again met with annoyance. I’ve been there for him relentlessly since the beginning and all I wanted was for him to hold me for 5 seconds and to help me to calm down while I was in a panic attack but I was instead met with the whole “well my mental health issues are bad too.” Instead of being heard.