Hello @Crazymumof2 and welcome to the forums.
Well done for sharing here and reaching out for support, that takes alot of strength.
Having kids is tough and they are really great at pushing our buttons. We are only human so it's natural that at times we get triggered and set off. Have you got things that help to calm you down, any activities that you enjoy doing? Remember it's always ok to step away into another room and take a breather for yourself. Have you thought about having a chat to a gp and getting a referral to see a psychologist/counsellor? It could be really helpful to learn some strategies to help in managing those tough emotions. There's so many different options out there such as distractions, meditation, breathing exercises, grounding techniques etc. It's just a matter of finding what works for you.
Please know that you are not alone and we are here for you.
Be kind and gentle with yourself, sending you hugs ❤️