Procrastinating or Being self compassionate

Hey gang,

I'm struggling a lot with my anxiety and putting myself down a lot today. I have legitimate things to be anxious about, I've been given kind extensions with my uni work, but I still don't think its enough. I have another week to finish things, but also have work and other commitments and trying to stay well after a pretty severe relapse of my symptoms over the last few months. Today I was supposed to hit the ground running and make some progress, but I stayed at a friend's place and stayed up late last night, so slept a lot today. I work up in panic and really putting myself down. I decided I was unlikely to get much work done, so I got some uber eats and I'm watching some Netflix. I don't know of I'm showing myself self care today, or just taking the piss and avoiding what I need to do. I have a lot to look forward to, but I feel I'm my own worse enemy, I don't know how to ask for help or get out of my own way. I just smile and lie that I'm getting on with study and life when I'm just terrified and I just hope tomorrow is a better day and I can be brave.