Beginning to question my choices

Hi all,

I don't know if I'm beginning to question my choice to undertake a Certificate in Child and Adolescent Mental Health because it is having an impact on my own mental health, or if I'm questioning it because my anxiety is sky high at the moment.

Yesterday, I finished the final assignment of my first unit, but it's been hard going. I'm a teacher, trying to enjoy her school holidays and I have spent every day so far with my head in my computer studying, trying to catch up. Last week I moved into a new house and didn't touch study because I had too much going on, so I had to catch up on what I missed, as well as this week's work and a major assignment to be handed in Easter Sunday.

I worked myself up so badly with this assignment, so much so, that I went into this hyper focus mode of anxiety and stress fueled by the need to get it done - but also to do well with it. I wasn't happy with the results of my last assignment - I got a pass. As a result, I didn't leave my desk, or do anything but work at it for three days. I even had a sleepless night because my brain couldn't shut off and let it go - I was trying to figure out the logistics of filming myself presenting a Power point and how to upload it when my laptop doesn't support the ap they recommended I use.

But as I mentioned, I love learning and part of me would love to be able to finish the course. It's what I want to do in the future - work with children who have mental health concerns. As a teacher, I see so many children who need someone to trust, who need someone to have their back and to support them.

But I don't know if I have it in me to finish this thing without it having a significant impact on my own mental health and well being. But I also don't know whether I'm doubting it because...well, to be honest, I'm finding things a little tough right now.