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Grief

Grief

Hi All,

Good to be part of this forum. I lost my son in a accident 14 years ago and with the help a various support groups have been able to return to a somewhat type of normal like.

I still think of my son every day and the pain has become part of my life.

Hoping others are surviving their grief within there life.

Regard

Hurls

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Scared....very scared...staked by my memories, flashbacks everwhwlming

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No @BB, he hasnt won, you know, "while there's tears there's hope" I guess in that case, it is good that you can cry, cry as much as you need. This is a particularly hard week / month for you, please be gentle on yourself. Going to a funeral, and in that churc, and loss tapping into loss... this has stiref things up for you, bigtime!! It has retraumatised you with inner an outer pain. Take heart, take as much time you need, the dust will settle and you'll soon find your feet again. And if you're bowled over again in the future - you'll get up quicker, rise we must. Keep working at finding a life worth loving. :)💜💕

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@Baileyboy. A very old friend from my young years was also abused by a priest. I actually believe it was mire than one.
I've never been religious. Not raised that way. But when I think of what those animals did to innocent children - I do hope there is a heaven and hell. And just like you, I want them to travel up to the Pearly Gates. I want God to stand there and read out their full lists of crimes and to feel how their victims - my old friend, you, others, hurt then and still hurt now. I want God to inflict the physical and emotional pain on them. And then deny them entry to heaven. And throw them down to Hell - where they will feel not only the pain of their own victims - but of all victims in the world and over all of time who were hurt in this way.
So I don't think it strange that your thoughts of revenge or karma are odd. I have them too.
The hard part is trying not to think of this revenge scenario too often. As the thoughts themselves can be toxic.
I really think it would be a good idea to talk to a professional while your support is away. You could talk to the local hospitals CAT team or psych Triage nurse. Or the Suicide Call Back Service. Lifeline.
You are dealing with a hard situation in the death of your special Bet. At the same time you have been triggered severely by being back in that church.
Could you try calling someone tonight - the local CAT team. They can assist you and help to keep you safe until your own doctors come back..
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