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@Former-Member I’ve tried so many things in order for me to feel satisfied with life overall (like trying to make connections in real life) but yet none of them have worked, and I still have no one but myself to rely on for support and to keep pushing through day by day. 😒 I blame it on everyone in real life that sees me as unapproachable just because the way I always present myself to people since I started childcare is something I simply can’t change or control.

@Blackcloud hugs and hugs Blackcloud life can be a tough gig. sorry you are feeling it today xxx

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@Former-Member Its sad how more than 95% of people in this world are quick to judge someone based on first impressions, and yeah the ones that would take the time to get to know you and accept you for who you are are only the minority.

But then there’s also the ones that do take the time to know you and would befriend you for a short period to later then reject you and stop being friends with you and talking to you. (Like be a fake friend) I’ve had a friend that did this to me back in high school. She even mocked me everytime she calls my name within those last few months before she completely stopped talking to me. Since that experience, I’m scared that other people I’ll meet and connect with in the future would end up doing the same thing to me as she did. Well not just that, but I’ve also had a lot of people I’ve stick to as friends for a period of time but then as time goes by they then move onto another friend group and stick to that group for the rest of their life and they completely stop talking to me.

I guess the part of wishing I can have real friends to rely on instead of always relying on myself is mainly in terms of being able to have connections in general (I guess but depends), but also in terms of saving money (like e.g. if we have to go somewhere by a car, then I can easily ride on my friend’s car without worrying about having to pay for the ride vs if I have to use a taxi and pay for the ride for them to take me to that place)

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@Former-Member I agree, being alone doesnt hurt as much as being let down by family and friends youve given much to - absolutely!
nearly everyday I fantasise and wish there would be someone that can fully aceept me the way I am and would be willing to stick to me as a friend and close friend for a really long period haha 😅 but yeah people are scary and cruel anyways

yeah, I think that saying youve mentioned on the last paragraph is the sad truth too and something that I find really hard and upsetting to accept. It’s like no matter how much I try to join numerous groups or clubs or events online or in real life to try and be “present”, I never receive the kind of acceptance and belonging treatment from anyone that I wanna be treated as

this is also part of why I wanna work in the mental health sector (mainly MH peer worker & art therapist) as I wanna hopefully be able to connect with others that are also going through some struggles in life and be there for them. I’m gonna be studying psychology at uni soon and everytime I think about psych, I get quite excited about it because the thought of applying my lived experiences to my passion for this field that’s relevant - I find it to be quite rewarding ❤️