BPD, ANXIETY, OCD

BPD stands for Border Personality Disorder. Originally some doctor dude thought it described a state or behaviour that lay between psychotic and neurotic… hence borderline.

Nowadays they don’t talk about neurosis much but are pretty excited about neurological…

@Ocean2 look After yourself. Sounds like you are going through a lot

I recently got diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I also have anxiety.

But BPD can be like we are feeling all these high intense emotions and have all these extreme self loathing thoughts all at once with all the internal turmoil that physical overwhelming pain can feel like were unsettled to the extreme. Sometimes unhelpful coping strategies that can be detrimental is part of the disorder in order to cope with all the multiple feelings and thoughts. Also disassociating with those behaviours until after or even just not remembering behaviours or day to day things in general. Lashing out and rage and impulsivity can happen amongst other behaviours. It’s like the feeling of dying inside every moment of every day but it’s all internal which leads to external behaviours.

This is not everyone nor everything about it.
I was told when I got diagnosed that we are not born with it, it is given to us through trauma and is meant to be managed as there isn’t medication that can simply fix BPD it needs to be managed with DBT and other therapy.

I hope this helps. I don’t have all the answers I’m still learning and have done quite a bit of research. I’ve had time to learn as I’m not the only one who has it in my family.

No BPD is the same we are all different and experience different symptoms to others. While symptoms may be the same each person reacts differently to the same thing.

Don’t be afraid to ask questions to your team however despite being the one to diagnose they do not understand what goes on as they do not know how it truly feels so I suggest watching others experiences just for yourself as others may describe things you experience but are not able to personally make sense to yourself in words like others. It can be validating as I have had professional people invalidate my behaviours and say i have no excuse for this and that as I am in control but they have no clue what goes on for people like us in our minds.

Sorry I’m going on and on I just want you to be heard and somewhat know some details. Please don’t take my reply as fact. As I specified that everyone displays and shows different symptoms.

Take care of yourself. Apologies for the long essay 😕

Hey @Ocean2 @Din1 ,

I have BPD too.

Let's just say, BPD is a huge emotional rollercoaster, and the way we respond to things in life may not be the most helpful.

Yet it seems like the 'coping' mechanisms we develop is all we know, and often develop from some trauma we have experienced in life.

For me, as part of recovery, I was 'taught' the coping skills I never learnt as a child. I had to practice and practice these... over time, things really changed for me.

I have to say I'm in a much better place now than what I was when I was in my 20s.

Oh @Ocean2 , I should add that I also had depression, anxiety, OCD and insomnia. Once the BPD was handled and 'dealt' with, the other conditions 'fell away' or were much better managed.