Battles

@Flutterbug9 My friend you’ve done nothing wrong at all. I’m just a complete mess and struggling to reply on the forums. I’ve got 101 forum notifications. My body is frozen and I’m struggling a lot.

I love your tags please don’t feel you’ve upset me. I really value our friendship here and you’ve been an amazing friend here on the forums.

How are you feeling?

@NightFury How are you? So glad you got to a cafe and will be taking a look at some craft supplies.

I have a friend visiting soon for a couple hours cause she’s been worried about me. Other than that just going to be home tonight too.

@Cuddlebear today is feeling heavy, I'm reaching out as much as I can today. Honestly feeling scared and overwhelmed but I'm safe for now and doing my best to keep it that way.

The supermarket was ok, what happened was unexpected but so very appreciated. Crying while in the shops was tough and everyone stared so I was glad to get out of there quickly.

I'm so sorry to hear how you are feeling, I'm here with you my sweet. You might be alone physically tonight but I will be here with you ❤️.

I found the most amazing group on Facebook which is part of my support network at the moment. It's nice to just be able to chat to people ☺️.

@AlwaysMyself Hello lovely. I’m glad you did some craft it can help steer the mind away from thoughts and feelings. Yes Sydney will be very busy with New Year’s Eve and quite overwhelming so being somewhere else is a very good idea. I doubt I’ll even be up at midnight.

I have a friend visiting soon for a couple of hours. She’s been worried and wanted to come visit despite living quite far away.

I’m sorry you too are having dark thoughts. Yes the 12 months will really help you lift yourself and to feel better. You made such a good decision doing that.

I’ll be online if you need to chat. I’ll be offline while my friends here but she has not arrived yet.

@MissGremlin @Flutterbug9 How amazing. Honestly I’m just so happy that the manager did this and they showed love and care. See how valued and loved you truly are. This is a little miracle to show you that even a supermarket manager sees your worth as a human being. I’m just so happy this happened. You deserved it. Flowers and shopping paid for just beautiful.

We love you too here. And Flutterbug I love you as well. I’m sending love and hugs to both of you.

Hi @Cuddlebear

I'm okay. I was in a bit of a mood this morning - just tired of waking up heavy and tired.

I got a few jobs done then took myself and my journal to a local cafe. I needed people around me, even if they were random strangers, and I needed a change of scenery.

New Year's Eve is a tricky one for me. It's always a reminder of the lack of connection in my life - I don't have many friends, and my family all go their seperate ways. I'm not someone who enjoys partying, but it would be nice to have people to see the New Year in with.

Tonight is no different. I am spending it alone. I might watch the countdown or something on TV. I might head to bed and not see in the New Year...I don't know yet.

@MissGremlin

@MissGremlin I literally just commented to @Flutterbug that these services should be prioritising people with chronic mental health.

I think it would be something I’d like SANE to really push because so many support services don’t want to support us. We can be helped they just need to want to help. Plus we need more support services funding with quality staff.

101 notifications @Cuddlebear ?! Wow! Don't ever feel you have to respond to them all, or within a time frame. Especially mine - because i know and won't ever doubt your heart. 😊

Sometimes i just check via my emails which posts i have been tagged in, so i dont get overwhelmed by notifications.

Ahh McD.... coffee frappe sounds nice. I didnt end up going out for an iced coffee, as a family friend popped over as i was about to leave. Theyve known me since i was born, so i stayed to say hello to them and then decided not to head out.

Actually, if I *walk* to the McD and back that nullifies the unhealthiness of the frappe right?! 😅😉😆 thats not a bad idea... i wonder if they have comfy seats or not at this one... not sure ive ever been there except for drive-through! Even when i used to live here.

I really wish we could all sit physically together tonight in a room. Each doing our own individual thing - painting, reading, tv/movie, colouring, lego... with light chats also if we wanted.

I think i am feeling this even more than usual because of the difficulty with communication/connection with my dad (whom i am staying with).

@Flutterbug9 so cute 😍😍😍. Took me a second to spot the second one behind lol. Glad you have snuggle buddies with you.

I'll pretend to pat all your cats, dogs, birds and snakes whilst i am away from my own dogs.

@MissGremlin @NightFury @Chasingsunsets

@Cuddlebear awww thankyou my sweet and i love you too. Sending you lots of hugs beautiful ❤️

@NightFury if I could be there with you to see the new year in i would sweet, but I can offer to be here with you so you aren't alone ☺️.