Battles

@AuntGlow it really is painful, there's been so much loss around me lately in many different ways.

Thankyou, things are just heavy right now. I can feel myself spiralling, I can feel things crashing down, everything inside is churning, my chest feels heavy, like there's an ache in my heart. (I'm safe). Please dont mention suicide call back service as they are not an option for me (i have email proof that they aren't willing to support me).

Awww wouldn't that be nice, just the thought of it gives me the warm fuzzies ❤️.

Hehe Casper is always up for cuddles, last night he decided that i wasn't allowed to do anymore colouring and he laid on my lap for hours.

At the moment I'm sitting on my bed, I have my music playing and my colouring in front of me just trying to not get any tears on my picture. Silly emotions are so all over the place at the moment.

I'm so grateful for all the support from everyone here, honestly I'd be so lost without this community ❤️

I feel that @MissGremlin. Also something to be said for the resistance we can feel to slowing down, even when we know it's gonna be good for us.

So so valid, maybe the time for some singing will come, but it's okay to just not have energy for anything right now. Hope you find something to get lost in tonight, with your various projects 😉💜

@JynxI've just turned my music off and I've put Angel on to watch whilst I do my colouring. I'm exhausted but not in a tired way if that makes sense.

Hi @MissGremlin , I hope it's OK i've hunted down your thread (via your profile lol) to reach out to you after reading on the other thread about the recent news you got. *big safe virtual hugs if you want them*.

Please feel welcome to tag me if you would like me to chat or even just sit with you virtually for a bit.

Angel as in Buffy Angel? 😎

Hello @AlwaysMyself, that's totally ok and welcome to my space, things can get pretty dark over here at times as this is my safe space where I share how I'm feeling. Thankyou for those virtual hugs, they are very much welcome and appreciated ❤️.

Thankyou and the same goes for you with tagging me whenever ☺️.

Yes Angel as in Buffy, I am watching both of them again 😂.

@MissGremlin Good choice on Angel. I enjoyed watching it. 😊 It and Buffy are pretty classic I reckon. All I know about vampire lore is from it lol.

@AlwaysMyself they are my safe shows, I've watched them many times so I can have them on in the background and zone out but not have to worry about missing anything cos I know what's happened already.

How are you feeling tonight?

I'm doing OK tonight @MissGremlin , not feeling too tired or down is good. I am watching Bones in the background, so I guess we are both watching David B together 😂 (but yeah, had to google the actor for his name lol. I don't follow celebs).

Both my dogs i think are downstairs with my mother instead of in my part of the house lol. But as long as they are happy and behaving themselves we don't mind where they choose to lay down. They will be called upstairs when I go to bed.

@AlwaysMyself i started watching Bones a while ago but i have to be in a good headspace for it cos it's not something I've watched before but I did enjoy what I'd seen. Haha I don't follow celebs either. He's a good actor i reckon and I've seen a few things with him in it.

My dog has snobbed me and is laying on the floor when there's a perfectly good bed here for him 😂. Awww at least you will have them to snuggle with once it's bedtime ☺️

How you are feeling is completely valid, lovely. @MissGremlin

Please know we are here for you and with you.

What does that ache in your heart need right now?

Oh, thank you for letting me know - I won't mention them again. 💛

hehe it would, but I am glad Casper is there to snuggle with. He must know you really need it right now.

Your emotions are absolutely allowed to be all over the place at the moment, anyone's would be - it's really hard stuff you're going through.

We are very grateful to have you too. 🥰