Battles

Thankyou @NightFury my sweet ❤️.

I understand, lovely. And I have felt this way many times before. I am glad you're allowing yourself to feel. Has this allowed for a bit of release? @MissGremlin

All of what you have shared makes sense... SO much sense. 💖

And yes, we can take it slow. Maybe we can work on what specific area tonight. Which would you like to focus on?

@AuntGlow it's not even giving me any release, everything just feels too much inside.

I'm not sure where to start, my head is just an absolute mess and I can't even think what's on a safety plan right now.

I'm just going to tap out for the night, I'm sorry. I just don't feel like I deserve to be here right now or that I belong anywhere. (I'm safe).

Maybe we can try again tomorrow if you are around. I'm in bed and I'm going to curl up with Casper and call it a day.

Aw lovely, you absolutely belong here! However, I am sensing some slowing down and coming back to grounding would be helpful. @MissGremlin

Curling up with Casper sounds perfect. Will you watch a movie or do some colouring?

Oh, and do you have a coffee? I am making a cheeky one now.

@AuntGlow maybe you're right that I need to slow things down but how I don't know. I have my colouring next to me but I look at it and cry. I have an iced coffee next to me and I haven't even touched it. I don't know what's wrong with me 😞. (I'm safe).

I'm tapping out cos I can recognise that I'm struggling to post safely and definitely not with recovery focus in mind. I don't want to risk getting in trouble and losing the only space I have to connect with people.

Maybe you're allowed to feel what you're feeling right now @MissGremlin? Maybe there is no rhyme or reason, other than your body is experiencing a feeling that is asking to be met with love and compassion? Could curling up with a blanket and Casper create this space for you tonight? 🫶

I will be heading off now, but I will be back to check-in tomorrow.

Oh, also - you mentioned that sometimes supporting others helps you. So maybe you could explore that if you have the space?

@MissGremlin, since @AuntGlow mentioned about supporting others helps you, no joke I had this quote, found it yesterday or earlier today can’t remember, sometimes I decide not to post when I go back through my screenshots as “it just doesn’t fit” anymore and look! I found it’s spot 💜

I hope to throw some rainbows at cha from time to time my friend 🌈🌈. Thank-you for all the 🌈🌈 I have received from you in return, always so grateful for our chats 🙏

Hope to chat later today if you'll be around. I’m off now for a couple of days 💛

Checking in on you this morning @MissGremlin

Morning @NightFury my sweet, thankyou for checking in. I'm here and that's as good as it gets right now. (I'm safe).

How are you feeling sweet?

Morning @MissGremlin hugs, my friend. I'm glad you're here.

I have just pulled up at work. I don't know how I'm feeling this morning, but I'm up and present at work and it was nice to take Luna for a walk in the morning sunshine.