Battles

The adulting sucks @MissGremlin

I wish you luck for your Dr's appointment, but the crafting sounds like fun.

@NightFury it really does, the never-ending chores are exhausting.

Thankyou, hoping to get a few things sorted tomorrow with my doctor. It's been a long time since I've done anything craft related so I'm hoping I can work my way into getting back to doing it 😊.

Have you got much planned for the week other than work?

I have work as normal @MissGremlin

On Monday after work I have an appointment with a new counsellor through EAP. The counsellor I started seeing had to go on unexpected leave so they paired me up with someone new. The new lady is an ex teacher who stepped away from her teaching career, so I'm hoping she can help me sort through some of my feelings about my career, my fears and my thoughts about where to next. We'll see what happens.

Wednesday we have an after school staff social thing. I'm not sure about the rest of the week. We have two weeks off of lawn bowls, so no training this week.

I think I need to do some work on self-care, and focus hard on that.

@NightFury i hope the appointment with the new counsellor goes ok. Hoping it will be helpful to have someone that's had that career change, she might have some helpful insights.

The staff social event sounds like fun. How are you feeling about not having lawn bowls training this week?

I hear you on the self care, I've been struggling with that a bit myself lately. This time of year gets busy and stressful and then add in other things, those coping strategies and self care seem to go out the window a bit. But it's a reminder that we need to breathe and slow things down to allow ourselves a break in-between for some much needed self care.

I'm hoping it goes okay too @MissGremlin but I'm trying not to have too many expectations because I don't want to feel disappointed if it doesn't meet those expectations.

I'm not sure it sounds like fun. I haven't really decided if I'll go on Wednesday or not. I...it feels really...I don't know...I want to say unfair but it's not the right word...to celebrate how far my students have come (and they have come a long way with their learning) when I know that my value as a teacher isn't seen, valued and recognised.

I just...I feel like I might not be all that well within myself at the moment and I need to take a little bit of time to show myself some care and attention.

@NightFury completely understand not wanting to have too many expectations. I'm the same, I take it hard when things don't go the way I'd hoped and then I'm left feeling disappointed and often blame myself.

You don't have to decide right now and it's up to you if you feel that it's something you're comfortable doing. I can hear those feelings of your value as a teacher not being seen, valued and recognised sit heavy with you, but coming back to what the principal said to you i feel that your value as a teacher far outsees your current role and that there's something out there that is better suited to you that will help you and those you work with thrive.

I hear you and I'm glad you can recognise that within yourself sweet and giving yourself some care and attention sounds like a great idea.

I know. It's a decision I can make, even on Wednesday afternoon @MissGremlin I'm going to go by how it feels.

It felt big to acknowledge that maybe I just need some time to take care of myself, to meet myself where I'm at and to look after my own needs. So, I guess that's my intention for this week.

@NightFury going by how it feels sounds perfect.

You did amazing to acknowledge it sweet, I'm really proud of you for recognising that.

Thank you for saying that @MissGremlin

I have to share with you @MissGremlin

Last week, I think it was like...Tuesday night. I got up from my spot in the loungeroom to go to bed and turned the loungeroom light off. I paused, turned it back on and then this little voice inside was like..."don't question it, just go with it." And I turned it back off and went to bed. I've been sleeping with the light off since.